Is the fear of rejection by people stopping u from realising ur fullest potential in Christ?
if that is the case, u should pray against that. Do not let the fear of rejection rule what u do. Let Christ take over. Let God be ur motivation for everything u do. Do not let ur own fears stop u from doing what God wants u to do, or to become the woman God wants u to be. Be bold and courageous, for His name's sake!
i read in a book that the chief goal of every Christian should be to glorify God. Do not let setbacks or even ur own feelings determine what u do for God. Do not let urself limit what God can do thru u. God deserves to be glorified, and we as Christians ought to glorify Him.
i believe God placed u in this ministry so that u can bring glory to Him. He wants u to bring glory to Him. Therefore, since God has enabled u, be bold and courageous!
Be proactive. take the first step. take the initiative to talk to others. open urself to others so that others will open up to u too. do not be afraid of rejection, just need to remember that God promised to deliver the righteous, He will be ur protector and advocate. When u don't know what to say, He will be ur mouth, just as He gave Moses the words to say. When u need the courage to do what u have not done before, look to our Lord Jesus! In the face of rejection, He stood firm, prayed to the Father, continued to do good, preached the kingdom of God boldly and loved the unbelievers, died for the unbelievers. Did Jesus give up even when he was rejected so many times?
Let us learn from our Lord Jesus...to perservere even in times of persecution, for He chooses to use us, humans, to witness and testify for Him. If we do not do it, who will?
Everyone needs Jesus.
Through ur difficult times, u have seen how God has healed and provided. U have seen his goodness and fathfulness. Continue to trust him for more. Continue to trust him for harvest. Continue to let him work in u. Continue to perservere so as to glorify Him.
Perhaps it is time to challenge ourselves. To die to ourselves, so that Christ can live in us. That God be glorified.Yes, we may be stretched, we may dislike what God has called us to do, yes it may not be in our character to do certain things for God. But if one more person can know Jesus because we choose to disregard ourselves, i would say, it is worth it!!!
When one sinner is saved, the heavens rejoices.
u could be doing something u dont like.
u may have to do something u have not done before.
u may dislike the people u are working with.
u may have to learn to disregard ur own feelings.
u may have to assume a role which u do not like.
but if it is going to make a difference for eternity, i would say it is worth it.
"But whatever was to my profit i now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, i consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake i have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that i may gain Christ and be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ--the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith." -Phil 3:7-9
the self can be our greatest enemy.
do we care more about ourselves or do we care more about God?
are we ourselves or God the priority?
Pleasing God is never about ourselves.
i enjoy long bus rides.no bcos i can sit down for a long timebut bcos i finally have time all by myself, to reflect and to think things throughmost of the times, i listen to the worship songs on my mp3 and is made aware of God's presenceRight there with me.so i think with Godha...and worship does wonders.it's good for the soul, and mind, and heart.and there, in the world of my worship, nothing else seems to matter. nothing else mattered. not anymore.it seems to hurt a great deal when i'm all alone...but when i am aware of God's presence, right there with me, i realise, it is all that matters. It is Him who matters.If i knew how great my God islike the mountains and the seas, i'd bow down on my knees and worship HimIf i knew how much my Lord loves meAs the psalmist, I'd sing praises all day!If i knew the pain Jesus endured, just to redeem meLike every child, I'd remember to give thanks and praiseIf i knew how mighty my God is,I'd commit all i have to Him, never to doubt againIf i knew how God would never leave me nor forsake meI'd trust him even in the pits of darkness or dungeons of hellIf i knew how the Lord will provideI'd never worry about the problems in my lifeI will rest in His plans and be contentIf i knew the Lord knew everythingI would never tell a lieIf i knew Jesus loves me so much that he died just so to set me free, and desires me to love himI'd bow my knees in humilityLift my hands in adorationand live my life to glorify Him.
I live to worship.
True worshippers of God worship in spirit and in truth.
hating for so long
forgotten' love
hurting for so long
forgotten'happiness
living without someone
used to it, forgotten the good times
forgotten the laughter, and the smiles
forgotten ur goodness, kindness
and the pains u went thru to bring me up
forgotten the times we shared
forgotten the times u toiled and shed
forgotten how u've loved me
forgotten nearly, u're my dad.
it's easy to live in hatred when ur heart has forgotten love
it's easy to continue hurting when your heart sense joy no longer
it has become easy to live alone, after someone've been gone so long.
nearly fogotten.
almost forgotten.
forgetting does not take away the pain of loss
it merely takes it out of consciousness, for a while
jolt my past memories.
i need to count on 'em.
to make my life whole,
and, at least i know
i've not forgotten...
my supervisor (full-time job) is great! in the sense that he is a real LEADER. takes cares of the people he is in charge of. big-hearted to forgive easily. very friendable. lovable. NOT fussy. patient. worked at Deli yest, and had a great nite. work seems more like play! ha...but the younger ones can really get on my nerves!!!went for drama rehearsal at G2 yest. it was great too! do u know about the evangelistic gig coming up at G2??? Must go support k!!! i think it will be shown in Sep... most importantly, BRING YOUR PRE-CHRISTIANS FRIENDS ALONG!!! i think it is going to be a great performance, of a lifetime, not to be missed!!! you gan dong du. MUST WATCH!!!!though i am only 1 mth old into this full time job, i have this premonition or sense that i wont be staying there in the long term . dunno why. and perhaps i should start looking for another job now? hmmm....but what should i do? i dunno....with this job, i am not able to attend church on sun....and it just feels WEIRD not being in church on sun. and i am beginning to dislike working on sundays. hmmm....oh, another thing, i now confirm i always guess accurately. whenever i sense something, most likely it will happen. do u call that a premoniton or intuition? the Holy Spirit? and i am the kind who will usually and normally act on my intuition...cos they are always right mah..friendship is really fragile.will i ever get over my dad?love makes a girl glow, really.
despite the trying times this past week, God has been good to me. God is real good. even when i felt so crushed inside, i could feel that whatever i am going thru, God knows. and it is so assuring to me to know that He knows. it is so comforting to know that SOMEONE actually knows EXACTLY how i feel inside, without me even saying it. and when i feel so alone, God is still by my side. in fact, He is the only one by my side. when i could find no one, He is there. Watching over me. like today, i couldn't find anyone available to go out with me so i went shopping alone. I thot i would feel lonely. but i didn't. in fact i enjoyed the solitude! cos i felt God's presence in tangible ways, like i found what i wanted to buy like miraculously, they appeared in front of me. and i did not feel lonley. i did not feel like a loser. i certainly did not feel like an idiot walking alone in crowded Bugis street. i could have, but i did not. That's the difference God makes.HE IS THE DIFFERENCE.Among the gods there is none like u, O Lord
no deeds can compare with yours
All the nations you have made
will come and worship before you, O Lord
they will bring glory to your name
For you are great and do marvelous deeds;
You alone are God.
[adapted]nothing could have prepared me for today's call.
they weren't nasty words...but my tears fell as i heard them.
they hurt.
daddy was hurt.
daddy do u know,
that we were hurt too?
i know we sounded selfish, and totally heartless.
but do u know how we spent the last one and a half years without u?
do u know how it was like?
how we felt?
what we had to go thru?
however i have to admit.
our words and actions were too harsh.
i know u still cared about us.
maybe we dunno how to respond to u, after so long?
"take it as ur dad is dead!"
is still ringing in my head....
why must things turn out this way?
if a sorry could amend the hurt, i would say a thousand.
but no, now, i dont think, a million sorry would change anything.
and it hurts all the more cos i know i had contributed to this.
"i might never come back. u take care of yourself, and the family."
我不要我不是一家之主我不要
我要的， 想的， 可望的你知道多少？
如果还有机会我一定不会装勇敢一 定不 会说那些伤你的话太晚了吧？
爸爸， 你知道吗？你体验的悲伤,我们也曾体验过你的难过,我们尝过你的委屈,我们的负担你的难言之语,我们的有话直说
我们的伤心渐渐地变麻木爱变了制你和我们我们和你少了什么?多出了什么?
爸， 你知道吗？
真的对不起。非常对不起。。。
请你原谅。
你听见了吗？
想说的话， 不知如何开口. 心里的争扎, 神，请你抢救。。。
met up with Xun Yu yest and treated her to HAns and later dessert at TCC. the triple choc al mode at TCC is heavenly-- delicious... what an indulge... haha...on a more serious note..have u ever felt unappreciated all ur life? add a nasty big sister and an abusive dad... add in insensitive people that u meet, add in leaders who do not think well of u. ..add in friends who are selective who choose not to be around u...add in liking a guy who likes another girl...how would u feel?how will u survive each day?i've a friend whose life is like that. THank God she has God, who never leaves her nor forsakes her, and never fails her, loves her and takes care of her.There is no one greater than God.The greatest love of all.....
is Jesus's love."Abba Father, forgive them for they know not what they do."
How could i live without You
How could i survive without Your Love,
Without Your touch
You're the one that heals me
and cleanses my heart
and sets me free.
It can only be Jesus's love.
[btw, btw, Grace 2 (our new church) at Bukit BAtok is so nice!!! i wished i had the pictures to show u!!! I was wowed by every facility i see! even the toilet...haha....it has such a nice done up. I esp loveeee the ceiling to floor window panels that allows for the full view of the neighbourhood nearby. only thing is, only thing is...... to get there is very inconvenient for me. hmmm...really far too...I thank God that i am able to enjoy Grace 2, God is so good to us. I am thankful to God and marvel at his goodness...that i have a nice church to call home. like what Sis Manrong said, a new church compound also brings on added responsibilities. Shall we then sit back and relax now that we have a new church? what is in for us, we dunno as yet. But Lord, let us bring glory to u in all that we do with and in this church. Teach us to remeber the poor. To fight for the weak, and to uphold justice and righteousness. Let us not take ur grace and love for granted. Thank You Lord, In Jesus's precious and loving name i ask, Amen. inconvenience is inconvenient....but i guess that is a small price to pay lah...Jesus paid much more for me....so i shouldn't grumble..alright, see u guys at Grace 2, our spanking new church!!!!] It can only be Jesus's love.
i find myself drifting further from God these days, intentionally. i dont have the desire to read His word, to pray, to worship. What is happening to me? i can feel it. i feel so far away from God, so far..... where i used to be so close.i dunno if the immensity of the knowledge of the task ahead is contributing to this...but i know it does play a part. Joey spoke to me last sat after the combined svc..and i was so glad he did. all along i guessed i needed someone to talk to me abt that...but no one suitable came, nor could i talk to just anyone. cos i needed someone who know me and my family...and who's best other than kin right.and i was really glad that Joey put into perspective a lot of issues that i am currently facing... and perhaps due to the similarities of circumstances that we both faced, he understood my inner struggles. Thank God! i didn't need to explain much nor do i have to be on the defensive to explain my actions. i guess the reason God asked him to speak to me was that God wanted me to do something! in the midst of the conversation, i realised that i had been running from the problem all this while, even though i recognise the problem! and God is like telling me, "Not knowing what to do doesn't give u the excuse of not doing anything."wow."Not knowing what to do doesn't give u the excuse of not doing anything."i dunno exactly what God wants me to do.... I only have a vague idea at most. And i could see that the task ahead is so gigantic! would i be able to cope alone?i am definite i can't!!!but if God is in the picture, i know i can.and i know God works for the good of those who love Him, according to His will. and i know God is using the gigantic-ness of the circumstances to teach me total dependence on Him. For with Him, all things are possible!Joey, if you are reading this, i just wanna thank you for taking the time out to be concerned, and to take the effort to meet up with me and to come for service. i am not exaggerating but coming from a family that has kinda of disintegrated and lack family warmth, your concern really made the difference. Family do care. Ties do bind. Thanks a millon cousin!!!not having what i used to have had taught me to treasure what i have now...and be thankfuli marvelled at the huge gapMuch makes a man want moreLittle makes him contentedmakes him treasure the present moreGod is perhaps teaching me to treasure everything i have now, instead of dwelling in past hurts, unforgiveness and loss.I'm glad for these lessonsI'm glad God is training me, moulding meMost of all. I'm glad God's the one holding meFor i know with all my heart, that He would never leave me nor forsake me.He is my stabilising force in this uncertain world.Thanks my Lord!pssst: i have confessions to make.i've reflected upon my actions and realised the serious need to repent! ya, like what Mic says, when God saw how i've treated others, He must be real ashamed of me!! not to mention, angry and with a disapproving look! and yes, now i am really ashamed to admit that i am the one who has done all these nasty things. So here,i would like to apologise to:-->the one i ignored totally at my birthday celebration. Sorry to treat u that way! i know now that whatever my reasons for ignoring you, it is just not right to ignore someone like that! Sorry!-->Mic. for me not being open and honest enough about how i feel. i'm glad u took the initiative to clear things up with me, i am thankful i have a friend like you, who always tell me what i NEED TO HEAR. THANKS SISTER!!!-->for gossipping at my workplace. i realised it is not a good testimony. i've realised it and i hope i will NOT gossip about others again. Gossip kills. -->for neglecting God. u know sometimes when u know u really need God, yet you dont feel like seeking Him? u do the things u don't want to do? in btw, SATAN and sin tempts and stumble us. and over time, we DON"T SEE THE NEED TO SEEK GOD ANYMORE? and we backslide? actually it is very easy to backslide and renounce our faith. but those who hang on are the ones who will get the eternal reward. where am i with Christ now?
