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here i am.
It's so weird to find myslef wide awake while the whole world sleeps (my side of the world at least).
like my sis said :" your timing is all messed up."
huh my timing? is there such a thing? i think there is. but ultimately, it's God's timing that i have to adhere to, like it or not.
was reading thru some of the blogs and i'm amazed at the level of angst and indignation that my friends have. It's so dangerously high. High enough to kill! and i wonder who and what in the world could have ignited the fire in them.
what did people do and say that made them so fiery? and what made them respond that way?
i dunno...but i guess it has as much to do with their character as the igniting causes. I guess they are pretty much very ANGRY people who have yet to find amicable ways to release all that pent-up anger. I just wanna say to them, anger which are stored up is dangerous and detrimental to health. I'm not trying to sound like a psycharist here or what, but my point is, anger can overwhelm you to do things which you might regret later!
so, i hope that you guys will find ways to release all that pent-up anger inside. you can probably jog it off, eat it off, write it off etc etc, just don't let it accumulate.
you wouldn't want to regret later. and thinking about all that anger and hate set me thinking about whether it is that difficult to love.
A: To love those who love you?
B: hmm..that's easy.
A: To love those that hate you?
B: nah...why should i?
A: To love those who frame you?
B: eh..no way!
A: To love those who persecute you?
B: to hell with 'em!
A: To love those who want to kill you?
B: crazy, i would kill 'em first!
Jesus loves them all the same.
why return tit for tat? for it is the Lord's to revenge and it is He who will crush Satan under your feet.
While on the cross, Jesus prayed "Abba, forgive them. They know not what they do."
Easter's this sunday.
I've never celebrated nor know what is the significance of Easter all my life till i became a Christian.
To me, Easter just meant coloured eggs!
Now, i know. It's the day where our Lord and Saviour resurrected. It is a joyous occasion. For every believer who believes in "dead to sin, alive in Christ", this day has great significance. And with his resurrection, there is life. And those who are crucified with Him rose with him also on the day he resurrected.
went for good friday service just now and it reminds me who Jesus really is. Who my God really is.
Yet, it is so easy to forget who he is, in our daily preoccupation with work and studies.
Lest i forget gesthemane
Lest i forget thy agony
Lest i forget what thy has done for me
Lead me to calvary.... If Jesus had not died on the cross, where would you and i be?and i'm forever grateful ..for the cross.
two girls were out late one night
talking about their lives
wondering if cupid hides
they were neither pretty nor ugly
neither brainy nor nerdy
neither girl-girl nor auntie
they just wanted average guys
they had their tries at the game of love
but could never get it right
when they see friends so in love
they wondered at the love they loved
Why it never endured
why it never blossomed
when they look at others and themselves
the differences begin to show
they never desired the high end life
but why can't they find simple guys
and when they look back at their past
the memories and the times
of broken promises and shattered dreams
tears found its way into their eyes
and now as they look back,
the pain has made them stronger
the hurt has made them mature
the disappointment made them see clearer
the parting made them sober
they have tasted love
at first sweet
now bitter
If they had known the bitterness
they would rather forgo the sweetness
and when everyone else think they are fine, being single
that they are tough and strong
they know they are not ok
cos they struggle everyday
they don't want people who sympathise
they need people who empathise
day by day
their greatest fear play
for they are afraid
to be at 60, and alone
no husband and no kid
and so, the two girls were out late one night
talking about their lives
wondering if cupid hides
If i have never cried
how would i have known happiness, and joy
If i have never failed
how would i have known success doesn't come by easy
If i have never strayed
how would i be reconciled
If i have never struggled
how would i have matured
If i could have what i want
How would i be content
if i have never lost something, someone
How would i have learnt to treasure what i have
If i have never loved
How would i have known Christ
If i have never hated
How would i have known sin
If i have never gone through trials
How would i have known perserverance
If i have no fear
How would i have known courage
If i could live forever
How would i know what's life
Synergise 05 was awesome. though i went for a brief one day conference, i was refreshed there and then. I was reconnected back to God once again and the feeling was just awesome. The planetshakers concert was nothing short of power and anointing. The 3000 packed auditorium was just bursting with praise and worship. And it feels so good to worship an awesome God with an awesome crowd. One people, one God.
I always think that the best kind of worship is one between you and God. where u can just be yourself and be free of all external influences. to quieten be still and seek Him. For that's when you'll experience him whole.
and inside that temporary set up auditorium, it can only be you and God.
and at the conference, the anointing was so strong. Youths crying, youths being slained, youths trembling and youths shouting and jumping. It is not the presence of planetshakers, not the songs, not the sermons, not the band or anything physical. It is the ATTITUDE OF WORSHIP. Youths were there to seek God, to touch God. and God came and touched and blessed.
"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you."Amen.
There's nothing my God cannot do.
i was put in an evangelistic talk situation today as i was with two of my coursemates. One a believer, the other a pre-believer. As the believer was sharing to the pre-believer, i felt that i was part of their talk too thou i wasn't directly involved. I admired the believer's total honesty and sincerity. He wants his friend saved, so badly. I wished i could talk to my pre-believers friends like that too...
sigh...
past few days, i don't like what i'm feeling. SUCKS.
went wala wala with Jess, Piglet and his NS friends yest. It was actually quite a nice expereince, didn't know that listening to the band could actually be relaxing, given that their genre of music is punk and rock. The band is still as good as before. As i sat listening to them, i was wondering where the female lead got her energy from! She was prancing, dancing, singing and playing the guitar all at the same time!!! Maybe it's experience but she sure had a lotta of energy! Her passion and zest was so evident that watching her sing alone is sufficient. She's not a singer, she's a performer.
makes me wonder if her energy could be directed somewhere else.. somewhere more spiritual? hmmmm...
been busy with projects, well, who isn't? And my friend actually told me to put more time into my studies and she hit jackpot lah! I should be spending the time i spent having fun on my studies! and why aint i? Sometimes, i just lack the motivation to. I ask myself what am i actually working hard for? No reason seems to motivate me as much as i would want them to. And i really gotta admit i admire those who put in so much effort into their studies and trying their best to do well. Will i ever be like them?
I highly doubt so.
Maybe ah, God made me in such a way that i am neither too smart nor too toot! so ah, i can't really boast or complain ya? haha... just a presumption lah...hmmm... God has a different plan for each of us and HE made each of us for different purposes.
Each of us is unique. Thanks to God.
that's why i've always liked the song:
Don't you ever wish you were someone else
YOU WERE MEANT TO BE
THE WAY YOU ARE EXACTLY
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are
WHEN YOU LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF
YOU'RE BETTER OFF BY FAR
hi guys, Lian's bdae pics are up.. click on "my pics" link to access.
=)
Btw, Belated Birthday Mei Nu. ya.. haven't fogotten you!!! i hope u certainly had a meaningful bdae although you might be spending it at home. HAppY 21St!! (",)
The test of faith comes when you choose between believing the unseen God and the things you see.
Into your hands
I commit again
All i am
For you Lord
You hold my world
In the palm of your hand
And i am Yours
Forever
chorusJesus i believe in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're reason that i live
The reason that i sing
With all i am
I'll walk with You
Wherever You go
Through tears and joy
I'll trust in You
And i will live
In all of Your ways and Your promises
Forever
I will worship
I will worship You
-hillsong- "With All I am".
5th Mar
the day where 8 girlfriends met up to celebrate their friend's 21st bdae. They went to sing at a ktv.
and it made one of the girls pondered what it really means being 21.
4th Mar, Fri
PNP
Haven't been to PNP (power and prayer) night for quite some time and i guess that's why i felt that the service was different from the previous PNPs.
I felt a fresh annointing of the Holy Spirit upon the congregation. God was in the house!!! That, i'm very sure. and praying together as a church definitely takes the meaning of prayer to a higher level.
As we were gathered as a church, i suddenly realised why Singapore is so blessed as a nation. I believe, looking at the congregation,
is because the churches in Singapore PRAY. And because we pray, God hears us!
PRAISE GOD.
i remember one sister's words: "Singaporean pray a lot, you know."
of cos, not EVERY Singaporean. I dunno about the other nations but there's some truth in that statement ya?
and the PNP confirms that PRAYER is Important. Like they say,
When you read the bible, God speaks to you
When you pray, you talk to God!
Why do you choose to live in darkness
When you can see the light
Why do you listen to the devil
When all you need is God's word
Why do you not acknowledge Jesus
Even when you know He's the way, the truth and the life
Why do you think negatively of the things that has happened to you
Don't you know that He's the one who does wonders, miracles and signs?
Why do you question his authority
When you know he's the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords
That at his name, every knee shall bow and every tongue confess
That he's Christ, God's son.
What do you not understand about church-lovers?
Are they in your eyes friends who have forsaken you?
Don't you realise they can only love others when they have God's love?
What do you not understand about God's love?
Having known John 3:16
Why do you question the things God makes?
He makes all things beautiful in his sight
Why do you question his goodness?
Don't you know that he's full of mercy and compassion?
He healed the sick, ate with the sinners and died on the cross
What more can you ask for in a God?
He died for you, can't you see?
Why do you argue and doubt Him, the Kingdom of Heaven that he preaches?
Don't you acknowledge his knowledge?
Knowledge that surpasses all
Don't try to be smart
When the only One who can give you understanding and knowledge is Him and Him alone.
Why do you think you can live without Him
When He's the only who gave you life
He knew you when you were in your mother's womb
You keep asking "why not?"
Isn't it time you start asking "why?"
Why give up your place in the book of life
In exchange for a place in hell?
Why do you fear Man?
What they think, what they are going to do, what they say
Why do you want to know what they might do
Is that beneficial to you in any way?
Look not towards Man
Look towards God!
Why do you have endless questions to ask?
You make me very stressed just looking at all the questions you've asked me
Why do you ask such weird questions?
Questions i've never been asked before
Questions i can't fathom
Questions which are so out of this world!
Why do you not understand the things i say?
Am i talking Greek?
Why do you not understand a simple abbreviation like Mac?
Why is it that you are so demanding?
You want ALL the answers to ALL your questions!
How am i suppose to know?!!
When i don't reply you
You demand to know why
You send msg after msg, questioning why
I'm just as clueless as you
That's why!!!
How can you talk and talk without feeling tired?
You always have so much to say
What do you want me to say?
I wish i could show you this so at least you know how pissed i really am
but i know i will be banging my head against the wall again if i try to make you see my point
Cos somehow, no matter what, you'll never get the point i'm trying to get across to you
i will only end up answering MORE of your questions
To which i wanna hear NO MORE.
Do you know you're making me so irritated that i vent my frustration on the people who are so innocent
Please don't ask me anymore!
I DON'T KNOW!
i'm mere man... ask God PLEASE!!!
*pissed!!!!!*
IT DOESN'T TAKE A GREAT MAN TO BE CHRISTIAN, IT JUST TAKES ALL THAT IS OF HIM.
feel like giving a mundane update of my days in a week, so here goes!
MoN
Hist lect. The only lesson for the day. Without fail, it will go like that: me waking up late, unable to meet Jess for breakfast, reached school at 12 where she would hand me my tuna sandwich and lecture notes which she printed. haha..always one.. i cant wake up early enough to meet her to eat. well, maybe only twice? then sometimes if i'm feeling lost, dunno what to do or where to go, i'll follow her to her accounting lect. and rot there for 2 hrs, to listen to debit/
credit, balance, liquidity and entity for which really i'd respond by "one ear in, the other ear out"! ha!
the rest of the day, sometimes i'll go shopping alone! not that that's a repulsive idea to me. In fact, i've gotta used to shopping alone that i've learnt to love the independence and freedom and of cos, lack of company (or chatter) that comes with it. Shopping alone can be therapeutic,trust me. And afterall, everyone of us would have moments where we're alone. So might as well get used to it! Moments like these; just you and God, nothing else.
TuEs
MARKETING.
Now that i study it, i kinda think that it's not my cup of tea anymore if how it is taught reflects the reality of it. Nah. It's not that exciting, creative, thought-provoking, interactive i thought it would be. The tut and lect are so *YAWNZ* boring. Feels more like a history mod that i've taken. YAWN* oh, maybe the saving grace that i've got Johan and KC with me during the lect. KC can be so hilarious at times! and Johan or ahem Jo, is so slack!! we always end up writing on each other notes! or he would draw some stupid stuff on my lect notes and i'll write on his lect notes what the lecturer said, which to him, are common sensical. ok, maybe. still rem the spider thing. JOHAN KILLED A SPIDER.
WeD
8AM-8PM
How would you like it? Haiz, u know week by week, i will take a close look at myself at 8pm this day and wonder how in the world, was i able to survive the 'longevity' of the day. and most of the time, i will go like: "huh? incredible. keep it up." ha. Self-fulfilling prophecy ya?
ThUrS
Sometimes have tuts. If not, free day. Usually work on this day. If i have tuts, they would be so interactive. I have social work tuts back to back. But i never get sick of social work!!! Why would someone get sick of learning something new each time you study? Social work tuts are always so informal and fun. Not forgetting creative. We have role-plays, presentation, grp dicussions, idle talking and crapping. The tuors are always the lecturers themselves who are so candid and interesting persons themselves. They give social issues perspective. They let us see what we're really in for as social workers. I call that COOL.
FrI
This day i would start with my Bahasa Tut at 8AM. This is the time where i would be running to the classroom and i'll open the door and everybody else would be standing up and conversing in Bahasa. i always feel so lost when i see that. and i would try to see what's going on. sometimes dunno how to!!! and i would stone? ha. plus the fact that the tutor teaches so fast, speak so fast, ask questions so fast! Gosh, i feel like i'm catching a bullet train everytime i enter the class!!! nevertheless, the process is quite fun! maybe catch no train, but i catch the toot toot sound!!
SaT
My official off day from school and work. This day's my Young Adult Service(YA) or Mass Bible Study (MBS), depending on the week. they all start in the evening so usually if i don't go out in the afternoon, i would sleep till late. and i mean real late into the day, like 3PM? Don't ask me how i can sleep so long? i just can. =) And after YA or MBS, i'll feel like going out! cos it's like SAT night, i don't want to waste the night. It seems to me that SAT is the day where "the night is still young", i dunno how many think that way, but i do. So usually, i'll go makan with Matt and some church friends at redhill market, or i'll go meet Piglet in town. Either way, i get satisfaction that my SAT is at least full and well spent.
SuN
CHURCH.
Why would i ever want to be elsewhere on this day? I WONT! The only exception is bed. I always make it a point to go church this day, except where i gave in to fatigue. Till now, that has remained the only reason. i hope it will be my only one, wouldn't want to add any to that. When i'm in service, there i fully understand the meaning of "Better one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere"!!! To attend service in church is like a piece of heaven to me. It is there where i saw a glimpse into the courts of heaven. Serenity, peace, love, gratitude and a moving of the spirit nowhere else on earth would ever have. It is this place i love. It is this place where i see my eternal home.
that's it. hmm... how are your days in a week like? i live with the beliefs that every week is different and every day is different! and they are! If you think that every week and every day of your life is the same, today and yesterday and tomorrow, would you take each day as new?
I dunno how many more days do i have on planet earth but I've realised the importance of living each day as it comes, cos if i do that, i know that i've no regrets even if i were to breathe my last in the next moment.Every sunrise marks the beginning of something new. It is a day the Lord has made. It is a day where you realise you are still breathing.
