It's time to do something.

read a few blogs and read mine over and over again.
I've written so much about what God has done for me.

so what have i done for him?

posted by ser @ 1:18 AM   0 Comments

"Back in the camp, everything was just planned nicely for me. All i need to do is to follow the plans and i absolutely had nothing to worry about. I guess that's the kind of life God wants me to lead. A carefree one cos He has planned every single thing for me. God is just so good, isnt he?
Though i expected much more from this camp, i know that God does not make wonders happen only in camps. I am God's beloved and he will give me exceedingly, abundantly and above ALL that i can ask for. I feel so blessed and i kinda know what God wants me to do. Let go and let God." -------Cindy


Amen.
I was truly thankful to God as i read that on my sis's blog. (i hope she will not mind me for doing that!) really thankful. God has been blessing her in ways i think she herself doesn't know but is beginning to understand. I thank God for her growing faith and wisdom. I thank God for her salvation. and yes, God is really good..
i know God has been holding her, protecting her , comforting her and providing for her. Really thank God for all that and more. i'm really gratified when i see how God has blessed her. gratified not becos i thot i should get the credit, but gratified becos i know God is the one blessing her. it's really such a joy seeing someone, esp your close ones being touched by God.

and i just wanna say to my sister, to encourage her in her walk with God that may she continue to pursue and seek God wholeheartedly. i know God is with you and for you, sister. Persist and press on even when times seems difficult and tough. I know that you are a strong and determined girl. No matter what people say or do or how you think, God loves you for who you are, not what you are. He doesn't look at the outside, he looks at the heart. rem that God is also within you and he will help you becos he loves you.

may i leave you with this;

" Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

posted by ser @ 1:56 AM   0 Comments

i am so happy again... hehee.. cos rejunvenated by God's presence once again. He's always there, just that when things don't go our way, we get so stuck looking at the problem, without realising God is really just beside us.

you know how i keep complaining and grumble at my work and life etc... as you can READ. but the more i complain, the more i want to complain MORe. It's a vicous cycle and after a while, i don't think. i just COmPlain.

and then i'd think i am so pathethic and start to think that i am such a failure in life.. why did i even live till now.

and then i will wallow in self-pity, cry myself to sleep and stuff...

keep thinking why life is such a drag..

and can you believe God was with me through it all?

Yes, He was.

He was just waiting for me to see Him.


and thank God i finally saw Him.

"For if God is for you, who can be against you?"

posted by ser @ 11:34 PM   0 Comments

but the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him
on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,
to deliver them from death
and keep them alive in famine

We wait in hope for the Lord
He is our help and our shield
In him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in his holy name
O Lord,
even as we put our hope in you.

-psa 33:18-22

posted by ser @ 3:22 AM   0 Comments

I guessed u have been dwelling on ur "tiredness" for veri long , rite? Ur complains on ur placement is more that surface isnt it?U'll get wat i mean ,gal. Even if u do not have a placement rite now.. u will still be feeling sianz n tired of life during holidae.. Everyone's life is different.Some are just meant to have good n blissful life whereas some are not..U are always feeling lethargic n tired , bcos there is simply nothing that motivates u in life ..tats definitely includes ur studies.. THere is nothing that is always absoluTE*.. (Such as life is absolutely unfair, hopeless). It is a matter of how u perceived..Formulate ur life goals now ba..Plans wat u want in ur life.. Wat u hoped to acheive n wat u sld really "give up" .. U have to make decisions of wat u wanna to strive in life rite now before feeling totally lost..Perhaps u might sae tat u might never get wat u want at the end of it, but at least u have put in the greatest effort to make a difference.. Placement will eventually come to an end..But ur tiredness n unhappiness will never come to a stop if u continue to let it disturbs u..If anytime u feel like going east coast again, mic n i will definitely pei ni onezz.. " Kai xin yi dian ba "*Cheer up n gambate* ^_^
-jess

posted by ser @ 2:53 AM   0 Comments

as some of you know, i haven't been happy since i started placement... ..i guess it has nothing to do with anyone but myself. I have been perpetually late...and it has become an issue at work...

I really want a break. To be found in God's loving presence once again.. to go for retreat. but i cant..
i think i really need some time to myself.. i want so much to break away.. to rest and to be loved...
but i cant.

i feel so lousy now... i feel like giving in and giving up...
i am so tired...

still i must say, God is good to me.
He has never left my side...
and that i rejoice and immerse myself in.

posted by ser @ 12:50 AM   3 Comments

it is never my intention to make life difficult for anyone...

and i don't ever want to...

posted by ser @ 12:57 AM   0 Comments