i cant decide.
i smsed my boss about quiting but later i smsed to her saying, i cant decide, need more time to think about it. Haiz..what's wrong with me?
then i accepted 1 tuition assignment when i supposedly wanted to rest more, and lessen some of my commitments. what am i doing? hmmm... i also dunno.
initially i wanted more time to rest , so decided to quit deli. but then i cant bear to, cos i am really happy working there. i enjoy the company there. so makes me have seconds thoughts.
then i wanted to rest more--not end of story yet. then i heard from my mum that she recently took up another job, if not "cannot cover". there will be 2 days where she will work back to back. and when i heard that, i reasoned that i would be selfish to just want enough rest while my mum is slogging her guts out for this family. so i hesitated at quitting both jobs...and it led me to accepting a tuition assignment. hmmm....have i made the wrong decisions?

anyway, i will stick by it since i have made the decisions. even if i have to slog it out, i will, for a better future. i would be selfish to let my mum take all the load of the family. It will be hard for all of us, but i truly believe God will see us thru them all. Just as He had always been doing.

I wanna let the whole world know how good YOU are to me....!

posted by ser @ 12:01 AM   0 Comments

it's weird. i suppose i have things i wanna say here. YEt, i cant find the words to express them. Yes, it is IRONIC.
I want to say how good God has been to me, yet i do not know where to begin.
I want to complain about my work, yet i am reminded not to be rush and thus say things here i will regret later.
I want to share about events in my life recently that meant something to me (leading a cell, drama gig, cousin's salvation etc) yet i dunno too, what i should write about them...too much to recall...to write...
right now, u can say i am in a confused stage or season of my life..where i aint sure of a lot of things anymore. and i am only holding on to what i am sure of- God.
i realised something important
it is only with a surrendered life that God can take over
it is only with giving up life's rights n privileges that one discovers God's abundant grace and mercy
creation's beauty lies not in the creation but,
creation's beauty lies in the creator.

posted by ser @ 3:04 AM   0 Comments

rejected by some but loved by u
helpless but held by ur mighty hands
weak but made strong by u, relying on ur strength

was lost but now is FOUND.

posted by ser @ 3:52 PM   0 Comments

It takes faith to pray.

even faith as little as a mustard seed can move the mountains. Thing is Do u believe God? Have faith! God promises to be with those who seek Him. Draw near to Him and He will draw near to u. Rem u are God's beloved son/daughter. If our earthly fathers know how to give good gifts to us, how much more will our heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him?

if your heavenly father clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and gone tomorrow, how much more will he clothe u? Do not worry abt what u will eat, drink or wear, for ur heavenly Father knows u need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

(dedicated to my sis. take heart that God cares for u...always..has.)

posted by ser @ 1:04 AM   0 Comments

haven't blogged here for quite sometime.. been busy with work and no internet access.
things come and go. change seems like the only constant in this world ya?
a phone call that came a week ago seems to have confirmed my deepest fear..turned my fears into reality. only a phonecall..and it changed everything i ever knew, ever had. what do i have left now?
no...change is not the only constant. God is the true and everlasting constant in my life right now.
every time i lose my balance and things change so fast that i could hardly catch a breathe, God's omnipotent presence is the only thing that assures me, He is the same, yesterday, today and forever.
He has never left, not like others. He has never changed, not like the rest. His love always stands, not fleeting. His faithfulness never wavers. and His presence and His word are my comfort.
I may not see him...but i know he is there.
It takes faith to believe.

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Heb11:1

I believe who Jesus says He is.
Do u?

posted by ser @ 12:50 AM   0 Comments