posted by ser @ 12:01 AM   0 Comments

I just Lurveeeeee-eeeeeeeeeeee working at DElifrance!!!!!!!!!!!
heehe........i am always so carefree and not to forget...careless whenever i am working there! but i like these feelings! The bosses are nice, the aunties are very cute and the younger colleagues are so irritating but warm! ha....never regretted working there for 3.50 lor... meagre pay but very very very nice pple! it's FUN!!!
just realised my new job is filled with so much nasty OFFICE POLITICS that i have become quite insecure. things go missing after a short while and some blacksheep are ever eager to play taiji!! and i've come to discover that SOME colleagues are actually wolves in clothing!!! hmm....i hate such fakeness!!! and sometimes i get scolded or hostile stares when it is obviously not my fault!!!! it just makes no sense to me to give nasty stares to a newie who doesn't know much about the company's policies or more precisely, dunno abt what makes them tick.
have work made these pple the way they are today? shifting blame to innocent parties and being deliberately hostile to newbies? it is so saddening isnt it? that pple get worse over time?
now i feel so insecure...so scared of losing important documents! and i was thinking, the next one to be backstabbed could very well be the newbie me...cos i dunno anything! haiz....is work life destined to be full of shit and injustice?
give me my desired peace and harmony and happily ever after!!!!

haha....felt so much better after all that ranting! thanks for bearing w me.
work life really robs me of my youth man! and time with family and friends. Not good for my emotional health too, to stay in such a 'polluted' environment for long! hmmm...i dont want to become jaded ....i dont want to lose my naivety....dun wanna lose any impt documents....dun wanna lose any sense of right and wrong....dun wanna be one of the blacksheep who always play taiji.....

i don't wanna to do this anymore
i just wanna know the reason why

but i won't give up so easily too! i wanna to prove myself. i wanna be the light that is ON and the light that SHINES!!! I need GOD.

posted by ser @ 3:42 PM   0 Comments

(recalling....retrieving mode....)

I'm still going to blog about the youth camp! 2 posts are just now enough! There's so many things to blog about...hmmm....okie... to make it easier, i will categorise into different sections...

What i think God spoke to me about:
Most importantly, I realise that God desires to be close to his children, that's you and me! A lot of times we hear the pastors tell us this, but it takes on a greater meaning when we actually hear God say that! and that means that God is nearby us everytime! Praise God. no wonder they say "call upon the name of the Lord and be saved". We don't have to find God when we need Him, bocs He is already there!! Amen!

My pride, lies and selfishness. Yes. I am guilty of these things. And God told me that He demands no less from me. I cannot expect to get away with them! God is a holy God, and thus he expects no less than holiness from us. And for me, where can i run to? God is everywhere, and God knows everything! Gosh, i was stupid one to think that as long as i close one eye, God too! No Way man!

God has the power to change and impact lives. and HE WANTS TO EXERCISE THAT POWER! God wants to touch and transform our lives inside out! He wants us to be better, yet better! Praise Him!God knows his people and what they need. How do i know this? As we went through the prayer tunnel, as different people passed me by, words just flowed out of me. Different things...and not only people. God knows what the ministry needs. In sum, God knows everything and every need. And not only that, He wants us to let Him fulfill all needs! How often do you get a good person who treats you better than you treat yourself??

God wants us to keep on praying to keep on interceding. God wants us to bless. More importantly, God wants us to intercede, God wants us to pray for the betterment of others, of things, of ministries.

Last but not least, do you believe that you are princesses and princes in the kingdom of God? Had i not heard it for myself, i wouldn't believe what a great privilege i had in heaven! Think about it. Royalty leh. Can you believe this?

In Sum, God tells me through all this that He is good. He is kind. And that He is the ONLY true and living God!

What God showed me:
He is kind. Throughout the whole camp, we were blessed with good weather, smooth execution of events, health and powerful services. Thing is, He doesn't have to, but He CHOSE to. He wants to bless us. He wants the best for us!!!! For me, i'm glad that whether as a DGL (Discipleship Group Leader) or Games Marshall, God granted me favour with people and the ability to complete the task. I'm nervous about being a DGL as i have to know the word, meaning i have to READ the bible. gosh, but as i prepaare, refernces to verses in the bible just came to me. In the midst of discussion, i was able to answer whatever questions my members asked me! wow....and as a games marshall, most of the campers knew me and i was so called 'popular' lah. And i recognise that it was God's favour as i do not think i have any charisma to begin with! hmm...and ya, being 'popular' has a price, later i was sabotaged by a few younger girls and was dripping water from head to toe! but still, i love it. hehe....

He is really kind. Okay during a game we played, i was to play this character that makes people do dumb things. Groups who manage to make me laugh could move on to the next station. Then this particular group came up with the idea of bumping and falling a small tree nearby. And then......one of the guys knocked into the tree, and ......thetree fell and part of the trunk fell INTO his face!!!! Amusing rite? No prixzes for guessing it right, this group passed. this accident's meaning to me was humor, all this while.but the thing was, it wasnt until the event was over and i was back comfortably at home, that i realised that HAD THE TRUNK FELL INTO HIS HEAD, I WOULD BE DEAD MEAT. and then, the more i thought this, the more i begin to realise how gracious and kind God is to me. and also, how much God loves His children! He would be there to protect them and to watch over them! Aint you glad? and God, did not cause anything bad to happen....he could have, in order to teach me a lesson (that i should have stopped them when they suggested the idea), but he did not. and this, i am really grateful for!!!!!

That He would discipline me. I remember telling my group mates that our group have not been assigned to do cleaning after the meals, but said that better not cos i hate to do cleaning! Then a while later, or rather as soon as i said that, Samantha came over to tell me that my group had to do cleaning after the meal!!! What a .........aiya, also dunno how to describe it. Divine intervention? Aiyo, so ah, dont anyhow say things. God hears it! hahaha....God is such a funny God. =) cool..

He is the one who accomplishes. We are his accomplices. In a GOOD and HELPFUL way. Wehn we pray for something to happen and it is answered, we tend to think that it is bcos we prayed and therefore we need to be pat on the back. but NO. God is the one who causes our prayers to come true!!! Dont ever get the sequence wrong ya? hmm.

I can depend on Him. You know, in the world we live in hor, theree's not many people we can depend on. Minus all the attached, singles but not available,singles but busy one, married ones, commit-less, heart-Less, Lazy, acquaintances, and cant be bothered ones, how many have u left? Even close friends cant be with you 24/7, and sometimes cant be around whenever u need them. So how? Thank God we still have God. I cant remember the specifics, just that God can be depended on, no matter how big or small the thing is. Even a thing as simple as finding an empty cubicle to bathe in, shows that God is reliable! He will provide! Yes man!

God is interested in every detail of our lives. Right down to ur toes and up to ur hairs!!!!! U have to know that God loves you more than you love yourself! So how surprising is it to know that he cares more for that little pimple than you do? He made you and of course he knows you! He knows what u like and dislikes. He knows you like to look good. He knows you like to be funny. He knows u dont like to brush your teeth! haha.....that' me.......Heya, the Kings of Kings and the Lord of Lords knows u? u? one of the one out of the 6000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 people on earth? When he calls you, he doesn't say: " Siao eh...." He calls:" Hey Su Teck!" "Hey Merleen!"

People who impressed upon me:

Ps Janet. got to mention her cos she is the guest pastor! haha...hmm...she can really speak in a way that warms her to the young people. and she is not afriad toTESTIFY> i think a lot of us do not testify about God ENOUGH. yes, not enough. i also dunno why exactly.......fear? scared people say u too holy? In fact, the only reason u need for u to testify is that God is good to u!!!! nothing else! and the only thing u ever need to do is to open up ur mouth and speak! is that difficult? if u are a chatterbox among ur friends, i see no reason why you would not chatter about God too! TESTIFY. TESTIFY if you believe Jesus Lives! TESTIFY if God is real in your life! Testify if he has blessed you! TESTIFY even if he has not blessed you, for God knows what he is doing. His ways are always better than ours. His ways are always higher than ours!!!

Ps Cuixian, Ps Ronald and Ps Kieran! Okay, dont think that Ps cannot be naughty! Ask the campers what Ps Kieran did to me!!!! haha.....i gotta mention them cos they are our pillar of strength. Our motivating foundation at our back. They watch over our welfare. Spiritual, physical and mental. And if Satan comes, they are the first to get hit, but they still gladly take up the cross and bear it for us!

Lastly, if after reading all this, you still dont understand why we want to worship Jesus, dunno why we even bother to praise God for everything, why i even want to dedicate 3 posts to the youth camp, perhaps i cant really tell you why. This song might.

He came to live
Live a perfect life
He came to be the Living Word our Light
He came to die so we'd be reconciled
He came to riseTo show His power and might
That's why we praise Him
That's why we sing
That's why we offer Him our everything
That's why we bow down and worship this King
Cause He gave His everything
Cause He gave His everything

posted by ser @ 2:56 AM   0 Comments

i wonder why i blog so often and so frequently.
and i've realised, see the title? that's my conclusion.
on a deeper level, i guess i express myself much better in words. and since i cant draw well or cook well or dance well--- "words are all i have to give to u"...haha...
i'm a very language person...so i express myself largely, if not entirely thru words. and it is my preferred mode of communication. i get sick of talking sometimes, so i turn to writing to express my thots. i find it a very good way of releasing my emotions and expressing my thots. i used to keep a diary...till i found typing an easier and less painful way out!!! no more scar marks on my fingers bcos of writing too much!
hee...dunno why i am telling this here too...see, i just like to blog, or write for that matter.

BGR. seems that it has been weighing on my mind. and i've come to a personal agreement with myself and God. I would ideally cease all bgr contact till God shows me the one who will be my husband. i am serious abt this and i am not going to change my mind in the short run. It is not a vow. it is more like a personal preference. I'm also not testing God. I just want Him to have all the say in my life, including bgr, and marriage. Thru my walk with God, i've tasted his goodness and faithfulness. u know, God really means what he says in his word (the bible)!!!! He is not a liar, nor a fabricator. I caN TRUST HIs words. and when God old me to delight in him and he will give me the desires of my heart, i did not believe it at first. but now i do.
God really fulfilled some of my inner desires.
The reason why God has a condition attached to that is not to torture us. In fact, God wants to give us the best! He attaches a condition, so that we will learn to trust in his provision and depend on his goodness for our joy! God knows our every desire and he wants to give us what we desire which is in acordance with His will, cos our God is a God who loves us so much. When u begin to understand just a little of how much God loves u, you'll know that God desires to give you every good thing. God will withhold nothing good from u.

He just needs your trust that HE will do just that.

Are u willing to trust God with all your needs, wants and deepest desires?

He just needs your trust that HE will do just that.

posted by ser @ 12:00 AM   0 Comments

hey! I JUST LOVE TO SEE MYSELF... HAHA. SO IF U ARE SICK OF SEEING MY PICTURES, HMM....TOO BAD LA!!!! heee...okay, below are my bday pictures...spent it at cine pasta mania as mentioned b4. though it was just a simple affair, dinner and later arcade, i know deep down in my heart that i am a greatly blessed girl! I am really happy with my life now and everything that i have and do not have. That is not bcos i am optimistic. That is not because i am strong. IT IS BECAUSE I HAVE A GREAT GOD!!!!

btw, thanks for all ur bday msgs, i know i am remembered!!!
ENjOy ThE PICtUREs! I KnoW I DO!!!! *winks at u*

posted by ser @ 11:30 PM   0 Comments

i overslept and woke up at the time i was supposed to work. imagine my horror when i saw the clock display 8am!!! anyway i was also feeling sick in the stomach...felt like appendicistis (is that how u spell it?) and i was so worried...thought abt the worst! that i would have to go for operation. ha...i'll nv know right? health cannot be taken for granted.. but thank God it went away later in the day. though my day started on an off key, i have things to be grateful to God for.

I can see God blessing each day in my life.
1) friendly colleagues
2) nice working environment
3) I like kids, I see them at work!
4) Financial providence
5) Happy mood at work
6) Non-critical and easygoing supervisor! Very impt cos he will be the one to assess me and at the end of the day whether I get to stay.
7) A workload that is manageable for me
8) Nice food at the coffeeshops nearby!
9) My breath today!
10) My health today!

A person appeared at my workplace yest. His sudden appearance freaked me out! I did not know what to do…I do not wish to see him. He lingered in the store for quite a while, while I stayed in the kitchen, not knowing what to do...and i kinda talked to God that i wished that he would leave the store...i dunno what would make him leave but i just told God anyway. then u know what?
while i was still panicky in the kitchen, my manager came and told me he left!!! i almost wouldn't believe it cos that guy would always wait nfor me till i finish work and send me home. u mean he is gone? gosh...but this incident taught me a very practical yet essential wisdom- i should not disclose my address easily or let acquaintances send me home, esp males. i've learnt. learnt the panicky way. and i will remember, cos no more next time for me!!!

i've come to realise an important lesson which i believe God is convicting me about- it is as if God is saying to me " hey dear, i love the one whom u sat beside on the bus this morn, yes the one whom smelled like he hasn't bathed for days. i love the one whom you see are not very capable or able according to the world's standard."
ps: yes, it is true this guy who smelled so bad i wished i could just stop breathing, of all places, sat next to me on the bus!!! and i tolerated his stink for the whole 25mins till i drop off? and he dropped off the same stop as me!!! how bad can it be? super duper suay lor!!! and i think i was very stupid to have stayed in the seat!!! but i thought, ok la, just put up with it, i must be accepting mah, i am a Christian. ha...quite lame excuse right? but that is what i thought. cos i actually think God placed him beside me for a reason! for what reason, i dunno la! but what happens is God's will, so i submit lor. Hope that smelly guy go bathe before his next trip out man, and spare stupid folks like us "pollution"!!!

i led cell today and i felt good during and after the cell. reason cos i think i did a pretty good job of teaching the lesson! ha...so bhb right? but i was really happy with myself when i saw them reflecting upon the topic and being able to give answers which were honest and true, answers which were supposed to be the answers. also, the discussion touched on personal issues and each of us were willing to share our fuzziness and confusion about God's vision for our lives. I thank God that he use me to spark off that meaningful discussion. I thank God that he ministered to us in this lesson that i taught. haha...okay do i sound super bu yao lian to keep mentioning myself? ha....no la, God should get all the glory!!! Amen! and i was feeling so tired before cell but left refreshed! Praise God for being with us!

posted by ser @ 11:26 PM   0 Comments

Promised to upload them and here they are. Part of my memory bank now!!! ha. hope i looked not too bad...wearing the convo dress always reminds me of the profs at hogwart. hurhur.

posted by ser @ 6:41 PM   0 Comments

i will be hp-less for now...till an indefinite time, so if need be, pls call my hse or email me for less urgent stuff. thks. pls dont call unnecessarily, i've always somehow disliked talking on the phone. dunno why. but of course, this is not applicable to good friends (u know who u are)-pls call if need be.

posted by ser @ 6:10 PM   0 Comments

only slept for a bare 2 hours last night... had a complaining session with my sister the night up and it was good to say all that had been bearing on my heart and mind the past week.. telling her things which i could only tell her.
celebrated my bdae last sun with good old friends at cine's pasta mania. it struck me that i don't enjoy bdaes as much as i used to. I guess as young adults in the working world, there is less time on hand to enjoy this special day. Special get-to-togethers aren't special anymore cos there are gtt on the other 364 days. A special bdae comes with feeling special first inside? what could make that happen? i guess i'd feel the most special when i am treated like a princess! and i am one! in God's kingdom! and what a honour and special privilege conferred upon those who believe. I am God's princess. =)

again this year's bdae i spent i with friends. i guess it will remain so for the remaining yrs of my life. i just found out something about my dad which i received with much disappointment. the occurrence of which i had been dreading and praying against has happened. It was not the shock that affected me. It was the occurrence of it all. I had been affected once. and now, again. a family breaker. it took my dad away. it took my family away.

now..i just hope that my mum, bro, sis and I to be happy. We do not have much, but let us be contented and be filled with peace and joy. and may love fill our hearts and the household. we've been thru storms together and we have emerged stronger individuals. God's providence is evident thru it all. I believe God will turn the bad for good. Thank God for his hand and protection upon us. no matter how dim the circumstances, i believe God is for us and thus we'll overcome. I pray against the work of the devil. He can never separate us from the love of God. I pray for my dad. all who knows him know his lifestyle is less than desirable. to me, it is just wrong. may no wrong follow again.

when my earthly dad was away, my heavenly father took over. where man has failed, know that God never fails.
and that is why,

I'll walk with you, wherever you go
Through tears and joy, I'll trust in You.

posted by ser @ 6:55 AM   0 Comments

today will be my 4th day at work. thou now i find the work getting mundane, i still find it enjoyable. hope i will still find it so on the 40th day and 400th day. ha. .

I spent my birthday at work. 9am-9pm.

how cool is that? ha...but i am not complaining la. i have so many things i ought to give thanks for. this job has been very enjoyable. i get to see kids everyday! and they are just so savvy smart and cool. they speak well, dress well and well, score well! haven't seen any particularly annoying ones...ha...even the most annoying ones will be cute. hehe... =P

oh...my supervisor has been nice la...so far...and my colleagues have been very helpful. but they will be leaving soon to pursue their studies, so glad to have their company, can click cos they near my age grp.

the graduation ceremony took place on mon and i ( and every graduate) took lots of photos. it was a boring ceremony, i felt so sleepy in the midst of it! and when it ended it was such a hurried moment for me cos my mum wanted to leave immediately, so i just took 2 photos with her? ya. then later i went to take pics with my dad. and after that, i realised i lost my garment bag, with my cert inside! and i just had no mood to take photos already....so i actually missed out on taking photos with many of my coursemates. hey pple, rem dont be so blur on ur convo k. always have someone to hold ur stuff for u. that's the best la. then dad left. left me to take photos with jess they all. then i found my garment bag!!! besides some decorative plants!!! what a joke. was so puzzled yet so glad. then took more photos! and went ktv with jess, ryan, mic and wayne. Su teck joined us after his convo. was so tired tt i fell asleep!!! omg..it was my 1st time falling asleep in the ktv room. my gosh...was i really so tired?

that WAS how my graduation went. will probably upload the pics at a later date.

mum and dad have not been talking thou dad is now back.
who can salvage a broken marriage?

will i see the word "united" in this family?

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posted by ser @ 12:16 AM   0 Comments

i named it bday dreams cos i think the list i am compiling here are not my needs, but wants. ha...ya i know. currently in my life, i have everything i need. i do not need much actually.


yup. i am contented already. So for my upcoming bday...i am AlreadY contented. so my birthday dreams...it doesn't hurt to DreAM once in a while....haha....here goes......!

~a study bible
~a NAV (New American Version) bible i got a pink NKJV one.
~an integrity worship cd or whatever is nice
~Birkenstock sandals? pink or white
~a skirt i can wear to work (preferably white or brown)
~oh...a lacy dress top...girlish one...ha...
~a pink addidas cap!!!
~heels...charles and keith would be great!
~a full length mirror....haa...

bigger ones include...
* all close friends to be saved
* to be Christ's testimony in my workplace
* to go for a longer term mission trip
* for my mum, dad, brother and grandmother to be saved, in fact i dream about the day when all my paternal and maternal family will come to know God!!!! i'm praying...i'm dreaming...
* contribute to the YA ministry EFFECtively as a CL
* Grace 2 to be a people filled, God filled powerhouse!!!
* I want to be used even more by God!!!!
* my sis to experience God in a greater dimension, in a tangible n life-transforming way
* Every church member to be empowered to do God's work in every way they are called, to function as a church and move together with God.
* Singapore to be God's nation, a revival in Singaporean Christians spiritual lives which will impact the non-believers around them. God you shake Sg!!!
* More people, more like Jesus each day!

AMEN.
i'm dreaming big....

posted by ser @ 2:59 PM   1 Comments

My Father, i adore you more than anything my heart could wish for
I just want you and Jesus, my beloved Saviour
Everything i have, I owe it to you
I owe it all to you

and angels come and adore you,
and we your children worship you

you are my world
you are my God
and i lay down my life for you
you are my Lord, the one i love
No one could ever take your place

and everything i have
i give to you my Lord, the one i live for
i live for you
and all my days are gifts from you
i pray i'd use them as you want me to
use them for you.

posted by ser @ 12:52 AM   0 Comments