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听不到

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

想听你说, 你却沉默。

不想听你说，你却说不停。

事实为何这么残酷？

历史是否会再重演？

我应该哭泣吗？

Fat Potential

Monday, September 29, 2008

been eating so much lately i think soon i will really become a PIG!

yest, for dinner i ate nasi padang and some mee siam. Then an hour later, mummy called me for supper, and i ate with her a plate of kang kong, sand clams and shrimp paste chicken!

and every nite without fail, i will have supper!!!

today for brunch, i ate a bowl of sour and spicy prawns with vermicilli, and shared a plate of kailan, and a pot of chicken with salted fish with mum. For dinner, i ate a bowl of curry chicken laska, and 7 satay and a glass of sugar cane.

is my appetite normal???

seems to be every slim girl's nightmare isnt it?

LOL..

its alrite. at least for now, i am satisfied with my figure!!! :)

Learned Contentment

Sunday, September 28, 2008

whenever we are so quick to complain about our circumstances or situation, lets not forget there are many others who are so much less fortunate. i saw the uncle who always bask at novena underpass singing beautiful christian songs. . he seems to have found satisfaction.

i looked at friends who worry about their living expenses and bugdet their spending...and i am in no lack. i saw the cleaning auntie in the office who goes about her duties everyday with diligence, not having much financially but nevertheless still gets by and lives on. i talked to "A" who comes to us for biscuits and milo and food rations, who is out of a job and is very poor. A few pieces of biscuits and a cuppa of hot milo fill her.

i think back on how i used to scrimp and starve, worry about $$$ all the time and crying over it.. and now, it isnt something i think about consciously. i have enough.

and i am learning to be content. u know now i can go shopping, knowing that i have nothing more to buy that i do not have. Kinda strange feeling...but also an assured feelinbg. and cos now i have enough, i am looking at ways i can bless others. yes financially. thinking of the people who needs $$$. and how i should allocate my tithes.

contentment is really learned. and comes with gratitude. i am thankful that i know i am actually much more fortunate than many out there.

Dear Father, use me as u will to bless others. All that i have is yours, teach me to use it well, and make it profitable.

I went cycling today with Gary, Wing Sun, Ed, Lucy and Natalie! (Lucy and Nat are new friends)
actually the guys and Nat bladed while Lucy and I cycled. Cycled a full 2hours. Hmmm...think i should have covered at least 5 click? hmmmm...not bad.. at least i get to sweat.. heee...

4 guys and 1 girl = bad combination
(cos guys always help their own kind. *tsk tsk* poor me!!!)

oh i bought an astroboy tee! never had one b4... so kinda cool i think!

Today.

Friday, September 26, 2008

after 3 trips to Sony Ericsson @ Wisma, my hp was finally returned to its rightful owner at 5pm today. haiz.. i was super irritated with the service.. cos there was so much delay and my phone was not fixed within the stated 2 days. perhaps the inconvenience of not having the phone made me highly irritable.. but the service was really bad. haiz...makes me think twice of getting an ericsson phone in future. btw g700 is a problematic phone, dont buy.

been really slack past few days at work... freer nowadays. but i m not complaining! allows us to recharge and have a break. fundraising went well.. thank God! :) Today is Mel's last day.. =( will miss her and having her around. hope that she will visit us often!

went to visit grandma since i took off today. she looked even thinner now... haiz.. told me what Johnson told my sis. She doesnt want to go dialysis cos she doesnt want to take the pain...she would rather die naturally. she say she will die sooner or later, with or without dialysis. and she would rather die, without it. she sounded resigned... though i could sense her sadness. i somehow feel she wasnt ready to let go of things and just die. was she trying to convince herself or others? when she shared with me, i was trying to hold back tears. grandma seems so ke lian, yet she tries to take it easy and be strong. poor grandma. if grandma leaves, i know i will grief a long time. =(

Dear Lord, may you heal her completely. I know you have the power to do so. Dear Jesus, may you preserve her life. Let her live in peace and without regrets. Lord i pray you hold her and give her your peace. Give her strength to live on Lord. I pray she will know you. Lord i lift grandma into your hands. May you continue to hold and protect her. Thank You Lord. In Jesus's precious name i pray, Amen.

after visiting grandma, went to meet Yiting for dinner at Hougang Mall. ate at the foodcourt then went to Mac for drinks. Then took out my camera to take many vain shots.

HA... and yes we manage to capture some decent shots.

I LOVE this shot! cos so natural lor...thou i was posing only... LOL!

the frivolous pair....

ahhhhh....so comfortable...

I'm a ISFP.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

according to the MBTI test.

that means i'm intraverted, sensing, feelings and perceiving.

read this description below which i absoluntely lurve...

"ISFPs live in the present with a quiet sense of joyfulness; they want time to experience each moment. They prize freedom to follow their own course, have their own space, and set their own time frame, and they give the same freedom and tolerance to others. They are faithful in fulfilling obligations to people and things that are important to them.

ISFPs are guided by a strong core of inner values and want their outer life to desmonstrate those values. They want their job to be more than just a job; they want to contribute to people's well-being or happiness. They don't enjoy routine but will work with energy and dedication when doing something they believe in.

ISFPs are likely to be;
trusting, kind and considerate, sensitive and gentle.

They prize most those who take time to understand their values and goals and who support them in achieving those goals in their own way. "

so very TRUE. lol. :)

NO murphy's law!!!!!!!!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

i'm so freaked out now. i can only pray nothing goes wrong with the calendars printing. Keeping my fingers crossed! Printing is such a technical and tedious thing! Spare me next time!

Escape Theme Park & Sweet

Monday, September 08, 2008

went there earlier with Yiting.. reached there at 2 plus and dark clouds loomed threateningly above. we hesitated at the entrance whether we should still pay to go in. Afterall we had a one for one ticket coupon. Finally we decided to go in and had our fingers crossed that it would not rain. Sure enough, thank God it didnt rain at all! We were able to enjoy the rides with the good, cool weather. We tried most of the rides. Inverter, go-kart, flippper, yakult, and pirate ship. The scariest for me was the pirate ship! Man... i was half crouching down on one side and closing my eyes for 3/4 of the ride! Super scary! My heart almost dropped out!!! The near 90 degree height was...ahem... not a joke! What was embarrassing was that the little girl beside me was completely cool and calm throughout the whole ride! Ocassionally she turned to look at me. Imagine this 24 years old screaming and scared out of wits!

EMBARASSING.

for Yiting the scariest was the inverter as she had not sat it before, and feared the inverting part. but ya she survived! heh, me too! with the pirate ship. but NO pirate ship for me ever!

got giddy with all the rides...must be a sign of ageing. =(

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sweet.

whenever Yt and i meet up, we would talk about bgr. it is such a natural topic for us.. then i was telling her about the sweet things G*B did for me which really touched me. simple acts but mean so much. and really touched my heart. come to think of it, i guess he's the only one who managed to do that. well, call me a cold princess? haaa...and Yt was telling me that more "ang mo" guys call their gfs "princess", while the cheena ones call their gfs "dar dar" or "dear". nothing wrong.. but when i heard that, i was like "so sweet! when a guy calls you princess!" haaa... so nice right? woa.. if a guy calls me princess, i will just melt! lol... BUT, only if my prince charming calls me. LOL. sweet hor. well... Yt is such a nice girl, i hope she'll find her prince soon! She deserves a better guy who will cherish and love her. Girl, i wish u all the best. Zhu ni xin fu! i believe you'll find a guy who's worthy of your love. =)

love.

is simple actually.

i dont wish for a magical, magnificent or earth-shattering romance.

no more tall dark and handsome. character matters more than a pretty face.

i just wish for a blessed and faithful love.

Purpose....

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

even as i "grief" over my costly mistake, God is good!

cos there is joy in other areas of work.

the gals whom we just finished STEP-UP with, came by our centre last fri. Though there were only 4 of them, i'm glad that they came bcos it showed that we had successfully built rapport with them. Now, they feel comfortable to interact with us and trust us. I find this very affirming. =)

then yest, a group of 6 students came for Sow and Reap event at G1. It was an evangelistic event and all of them are pre-Christians. I din expect them to make it cos i called some of them and none said they would come. So when Ps Ron told me about it, i was surprised. Though it was my off day, i went for the event, and i did not regret it! So i went wth Ps Ron to fetch them from Peninsula Plaza. Ian had a nose bleed and looked so pale that Ps Ron wanted to take him to the doc. We were so worried for him! In the end, after drinking some milo, he was much better. And as i joined them for the games and became their unofficial leader, and i saw them had fun and fully participate in the activities, i was amazed and touched. And they were very genuine people.

what touched me most that evening was what they said and did for Joshua A (their leader from Grace). All of us had gotten our food except Joshua. When all of us were sitted, and when Joshua came back, all of them, in perfect unison, said with one accord, "Thank you Joshua!" When he came back with the empty plate, we told him to go get some food, but he said later. Then....... Ian gave one of his "precious" chicken wings to Joshua. He said " nah, give u." Joshua declined but Ian insisted. He willingly gave up his chicken wing. So nice and sweet of him isnt it?

=) all these made my heart smile. these youths are so endearing. whenever they call your name. whenever they offer you something. whenever they take initiative to talk to you. when they like you.

and they keep me going. :)

i feel a renewed sense of purpose and meaning in the work i do. I know I'm in here for a reason.

Dear God, pls continue to show me Your way. Use me as you will.

a difficult period

Monday, September 01, 2008

dearest father

its a trying time
and i'm finding it hard to trust
with the odds against me
and i've gotta race against time

there is no one who understands
how i feel inside
its terrible and its horrible
no words could describe

and i stand here all alone

the storm is barely over
the giant yet to come
i am so scared
the confidence's gone
cant stand to live another day

and i stand here all alone

father only you can understand
my heart cries
and i run to you
run into your arms

to be by your side
to hold your hand
cos i don't know where to run
i'll run to you

i'll stand with you.

Serene, 25, Christian
a sinner saved by God's grace.
a beloved child of God.
a social worker (youth).
a daughter.
a sister to 2 younger siblings.

"This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." -1 John 4:10

*God; the Father, Son Jesus and Holy Spirit
*Family; Tan
*Church; Grace Assembly of God
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*My cell group; AHH (After His Heart)
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*Missions
*Children
*Good food, Chocolates and Ice-cream!

Lyrics | Chris Tomlin lyrics - Made To Worship lyrics

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