[adapted]nothing could have prepared me for today's call.
they weren't nasty words...but my tears fell as i heard them.
they hurt.
daddy was hurt.
daddy do u know,
that we were hurt too?
i know we sounded selfish, and totally heartless.
but do u know how we spent the last one and a half years without u?
do u know how it was like?
how we felt?
what we had to go thru?
however i have to admit.
our words and actions were too harsh.
i know u still cared about us.
maybe we dunno how to respond to u, after so long?
"take it as ur dad is dead!"
is still ringing in my head....
why must things turn out this way?
if a sorry could amend the hurt, i would say a thousand.
but no, now, i dont think, a million sorry would change anything.
and it hurts all the more cos i know i had contributed to this.
"i might never come back. u take care of yourself, and the family."
我不要我不是一家之主我不要
我要的， 想的， 可望的你知道多少？
如果还有机会我一定不会装勇敢一 定不 会说那些伤你的话太晚了吧？
爸爸， 你知道吗？你体验的悲伤,我们也曾体验过你的难过,我们尝过你的委屈,我们的负担你的难言之语,我们的有话直说
我们的伤心渐渐地变麻木爱变了制你和我们我们和你少了什么?多出了什么?
爸， 你知道吗？
真的对不起。非常对不起。。。
请你原谅。
你听见了吗？
想说的话， 不知如何开口. 心里的争扎, 神，请你抢救。。。
