disclaimer: stay clear! the blogger has decided to rant all her frustrations here..
its weird.
nobody really talks to me about this until i dont have one. hmmm.. there's kinda some unspoken aura not to talk about until its over, and many start asking why, and wanna help me analyse why things happen the way they do. i feel like a guinea pig awaiting its testing trial; interrogated like there's something wrong with me. friends who know little about my love life suddenly come to me and ask, "hey you ok? i heard that ........"--so i find myself repeating the same story over and over again. even my mum who usually does not inquire much about my bgr, asked me about it when its over, but she kept so silent throughout the r/s. i cant make sense of this! its like...so strange right? that people come asking only when something is wrong? and then they wanna help. haiz.. have we become so apt at remedial work than preventive? if not, why do we respond only when the problem has come? when i needed a listening ear, i found only 1. when i don't need a listening ear, i found many. i keep asking myself the same 2 questions over and over again. and it seem to have no end, nor signs of them being answered. the more i search within myself, the more unsure i am of what i want. the more i hear from others, the more i know what i don't want. i think i need to pray more and allow God to speak to me. i want to be sure. i think my problem is; i know what i don't want. But i don't know what i want.
Serene, 25, Christian
a sinner saved by God's grace.
a beloved child of God.
a social worker (youth).
a daughter.
a sister to 2 younger siblings.
Your Love
"This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." -1 John 4:10
Loves n Adores
*God; the Father, Son Jesus and Holy Spirit
*Family; Tan
*Church; Grace Assembly of God
*My close friends
*My cell group; AHH (After His Heart)
*Youths
*Missions
*Children
*Good food, Chocolates and Ice-cream!
