i shouldnt be blogging now cos i am at work. but i just felt like penning some thoughts. i guess it will help me focus on my work later! haha.. like clear some things off my mind.
i've been wanting to blog past few days but i dunno what i should blog about. its like bits and pieces of information which i have no luxury of time to string together. let me try attempting to pen them here.
time with Matt: has been really enjoyable and laidback...esp times where we are both tired from the day, and just want to nua. times when we are just contented taking bus rides, walking distances, eating or sitting down. its just the mundane things we do, but i think its really not what we do that matters, but who we're with. and for us, just spending time with each other speaks volumes. the only downside to being attached is that now i get lesser dates. :(
work: packed with stuff to do! i think i've had more meetings this month than all the past 6 months! there will be changes to my jd which means i will be doing different things than when i first joined. all along, i just did youth work and programs, now i will have to handle casework and counseling, do outreach, attend networking meetings and conduct groupwork sessions. all of which i'd rather not, cos i just have the passion and heart for youth work. I guess this expansion of jd is not necessarily bad, but it means i will have to do the stuff i dont naturally like and to be out of my comfort zone more times than once. hmmm.. well.. i dont have much of a choice. the one big stone on my shoulder now is the dec cambodia trip where my colleague and i will be leading a grp of 26 youths and young adults to do community service. this is a task bigger than myself that i am often taunted by the expanse of it all! to be really frank, i have no confidence to lead all of them. i feel this is so beyond me. and i often lay this expedition before God and tell him to lead and guide me. i cannot imagine myself leading this without Him.
AHH: my baby and burden. this is my 3rd year leading as a cell leader. and i have grown attached to this group of brothers and sisters. there have been many changes in these few years, and ha..i feel i have weathered the storms with you, i've been stretched, i've grown, i've sacrificed, i've gained, i've cried, i've laughed, i've aged. lol. i dunno what legacy i'd leave behind. but it was definitely a defining period of time in my life where much of my christian self was moulded. my top prayer request for cell is always growth. growth in knowledge and understanding of God, growth in faith, hope and love, growth in service to God, growth in hunger and desire for the Lord, growth in spiritual maturity. this cell will always remain close to my heart, and God's heart. jia you. :)
spiritual condition: i've been reflecting and i believe i am currently underchallenged and stagnant. and i guess i am ready for new adventures with God! i miss the times of being stretched and seeing God work the miraculous. Partnering God to do the impossible and incredible. Thats really something! and i miss those times. Life now is stable, comfortable, steady and boring.. ha. i guess only a few of you really understand my sentiments. maybe some of you think i'm asking for trouble, or more work! But i want a life filled with God or nothing at all! Jesus promised an abundant life and i dont wish to live any lesser. i guess... cambodia will be a roller coaster ride. hmmm. :)
relocation: soon in a few months' time, i will be moving out from my humble abode and home of 10 years. i feel so sad to leave this place i've grown to love; esp its central location and convenience. and i will have a lot of packing to do! really dislike the packing and unpacking part. and thats why i've haven started! given the other things happening, this is like the least of my concern, yet i believe it will be a major adjustment for me and family in this later half of the year.
transitions: change is coming, again. in times of change, i am just so thankful my God doesn't!
Serene, 25, Christian
a sinner saved by God's grace.
a beloved child of God.
a social worker (youth).
a daughter.
a sister to 2 younger siblings.
Your Love
"This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." -1 John 4:10
Loves n Adores
*God; the Father, Son Jesus and Holy Spirit
*Family; Tan
*Church; Grace Assembly of God
*My close friends
*My cell group; AHH (After His Heart)
*Youths
*Missions
*Children
*Good food, Chocolates and Ice-cream!
