there are many question marks to the questions i am asking. i dont have the answers and bcos of that i am so fan! and while i couldnt sleep last night, i thought about so many things. thought about cell, about work etc..
been also asking questions about cell plans in May, work, about what God is doing in my life... thinking about a few individuals in cell, about the children earlier in the program, about why certain things happen, and why certain things dont happen, about a particular person, about a dream which i had on thurs i think..
talking about this dream......................its just very WRONG. its a dream that is so abnormal! i dreamt abt being in this bgr r/s with a friend and he was doing things with me that only a bf would dare to be allowed to do! OMG! okay..its not sex. it was kissing. but to me, it was just horrendous! i wonder why he didnt get bashed up by me in the dream! but when i woke up, i felt so .....taken advantage of! but in the dream, i was enjoying it! omg! its is so .......................!!!!!!!!! and i dont think in the dream, we are officially bf and gf. OMG. wo de tian ah!
my mum would straight away say of such things.. bu xiang hua!
exactly! what kind of a dream is that? what did we think we were doing???!
aiyo.......i should be so paiseh now..! hide my face! okay that was my open secret to you dear reader. so dui lian stuff... but aiya nvm.. i shall be transparent n honest here.. i am just as human as any human. ha. it is not to justify the dream. it is to let you know i am not infallable, and i am not immune to worldliness, and such weird, and wrong dreams.
dreams are really mysterious arent they?
and i am so GLAD this dream ISNT real! thank God! if not i dont think i can face anyone again with integrity and purity, or even any decency. and not to mention to be able to face someone i like. :) so ya.. thank God i am currenly single, if not how to face bf or husband? that would be really tormenting!
as for the many questions i ask but have no questions to, they just drive me to the prayer closet. i pray. and i find that'sthe only thing i can do at this point. i have no answers, no solutions. but God doesn't! God knows all my thoughts. He has not run out of solutions or answers. He has the answer. SO i just turned these questions to God, and ask Him. haven heard his reply to them yet. But i believe i will have them answered in time, bcos God hears my prayers. And God will answer in His time, in His way.
so God, all my question marks, i turn them all to you. I want your answers bcos i know none and have none.
Serene, 25, Christian
a sinner saved by God's grace.
a beloved child of God.
a social worker (youth).
a daughter.
a sister to 2 younger siblings.
Your Love
"This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." -1 John 4:10
Loves n Adores
*God; the Father, Son Jesus and Holy Spirit
*Family; Tan
*Church; Grace Assembly of God
*My close friends
*My cell group; AHH (After His Heart)
*Youths
*Missions
*Children
*Good food, Chocolates and Ice-cream!
