-managing my current workload, work portfolio will change quite abit to include new areas of work and doing more outreach and networking which are not necessarily bad, but i really need time to adjust, learn and manage. too many things on the plate, need good time management.
-leading a team of youths and volunteers to Cambodia in Dec for community service
-leading AHH to a deeper level of growth in God and His word
-sharing my faith with grandma
-sharing my faith with my cousins, esp Johnson
-growing in my knowledge and understanding of/ in God's word (discipleship)
-going for at least one mission trip (though i think this is the least likely cos of my work schedule but i pray God makes a way! the place i wanna go is ea, but i have programs at the same time, so i dont think i can go. i dont mind like over the weekends kind, but ea is still my 1st choice. )
-financially supporting my brother in his poly studies (he's starting school on 22april..i think!)
-sticking to my fasting and praying every sun lunch! (this is becoming a routine for me, although i still get super hungry at dinner time! which is normal i think! i need weekly discipline to believe in it and see myself through this. hopefully i can fast like that for the whole year..but maybe i'd try 3months first. been through 6 weeks fasting and praying out of which 2 times i fail to do so; once cos was friend's bdae and another i actually forgot and ate! how funny rite?? lol. )
- oh just thot of this last one now.. it will be discovering God's calling for me in the next 2-3 years in terms of career. i think its social worker for now but the next few years, i am not too sure. dunno whether i should be happy or sad abt that. hmmm new things excites me, but changes too drastic can be scary....... but meanwhile, i just wanna enjoy my work as a social worker at REACH, giving my all and best to the work i'm called to do here. I know as i pray, God will show me His way, when He feels its time to move me. In your timing Lord! :)
these are some of the "giants" / personal goals and challenges for this year, and what i can think of right now. i pray i will face these "giants" boldly and not give up, stand firm in God and not bow down to defeat, and stop running away.
i think i have been running away for too long; running away from "giants" in my life which i cannot handle and dont want to handle. it has always been an area of weakness for me, and refuge to keep running away from demands, expectations and challenges, discomfort. guess it is time for me to stop running and face the giants. :) i run away, then in the end still face the same old giants i need to fight , so as to find a way out! lol. and i can run as far as i like, but i will never run out of God's hands. :) knowing that is comforting to me. for i know, whenever i run to, God is always wherever. where i am, there He will be. reminds me of Psa 139--where can i run to where God isnt?
:) so i just wanna stop running away, keep trusting in the Lord who knows me thoroughly, made me and will guide me.
Psalms 139:1-10
O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.
You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
