internship has been great so far!!! =)
although recently i've been frustrated and angry with one of the youths i'm doing bible study with.
i felt that she was really demanding too much of my time and attention.
worst is, i felt so manipulated by her! Manipulation is something i absolutely detest! it is mean to manipulate anyone! that's just so immature and selfish. really affected me so much that i just want to avoid her altogether.
but i guess it is my own helplessness that i am more upset with.
as i was pouring out my woes to God, i was reminded of God's love for me. and i know He will bring me through. So i determine to perservere. I dont deny that this incident has shakened my resolute to be a youth worker. i even thought of giving up it all.. yet when i was reminded once again last night, who my God is-His character, i felt faith rising again... and i tell myself i will still press on and bravely face what is to come.
You've seen me through many tears
Yet never once did you give up on me
Nor stop believing in me.
Even though i fall and stray so many times
Each time i call out
You're never far
Each time i seek, thee i find
When others have forsaken and trampled upon,
You treat as precious beloved
You're always faithful, always loving, always true
Jesus...when all i do is cry
You never once despise
When all i do is prone to failure
You cheer, encourage and love.
What a God i've found!
Full of mercy, tenderness and loving care.
I often ask you
When nobody loves, why do u still?
Truth is : You still love even when nobody does.
You are love.
That is Your nature.
Really, knowing You was the best thing that ever happened to me.
You love sustains me.
Thank You Lord!
