1) Brother Chin Seng's and Ervina's migration to Perth 2) Maisie 21st Birthday Celebration at Essential Brews

happened on the same day-30 Oct 2007.

i'm now in the midst of sorting out my emotions. so many events can just happen in a day that one has no time to make sense of them all. can it be that even after a long while, u are still processing that event which happened yrs ago? Its likely!

today i decided not to go office..decided to just let myself rest..decided not to be bothered by smses or phonecalls..missed a few of her calls..decided not to reply her smses...decided to not care so much about things and let loose for a while.

I accompanied my bro to the hairdresser and watched on as he sat in the hairdresser's chair, having his hair cut. it was actually therapeutic. ha..i sat there doing nothing but watch. just din feeling like doing anything in fact. actually for the whole day i was like that.

then i asked Mic and Jess for dinner but it turned out that they had already met up earlier for lunch..and Mic had tuition in the night so couldnt make it. they thought that i had work so didn't ask me to join. in the end, i just da bao from the coffeeshop and ate at home. I don't like to eat alone. But i guess it is a task i have to learn to enjoy..if not i will feel miserable everytime i eat alone. i can stand being alone, but i can't stand being lonely! ahhhh..the bane of life. ha.

sometimes i think i am too much a loner..but situations have it tt i am always left alone..so after a while..i automatically lone alone. i am someone whom many may find hard to fathom..or understand..but u will understand and truly know me if u are a listener, and not just a friend. =)

i need quiet moments away from the crowds, from work, from activities to be with myself and God.

i will need time to get used to being alone again.

in everything, i always hope the best for things. dont like to think too complicated or too chim. i like to keep things simple and innocent. =)

posted by ser @ 9:29 PM