feelings today;
pissed! -work
angry! -work
frustrated! -work
irritated! -work
flustered! -work
annoyed! -work
disappointed! -work
tired... -work
grief... -prayer -God
hopeful... -prayer- God
peaceful! -prayer- God
what an emotional roller coaster. ( i just realised as i was typing this, just do a simple tally or small observation...u'll know Y i felt so lousy today. Where have i put God today? looks like i left him in the cold room...only to take him out when the day is coming to an end...gosh.! NO WONDER.)
i cant help but think that work has made me such a different person? like how nowadays i am more grumpy, easily irritated, more flustered and less patient. and worse of all, i become more selfish...and become more an angry person and disgruntled person!
i noticed the difference as i reflected in my quieter moments ...tried to recall the no of times i gave God thanks and praise.
i'm feeling the heat really. what is the best way to survive in the workplace and not compromise any of my beliefs and yet be a true Christian? i really struggle...with loving others. Yet i cannot claim to love God if i do not have love for others. and loving those who are good to me is easy. it is loving those who are bad to me that is difficult..just what the bible says. and i think i struggle with it everyday. to love that boss who unknowingly made my life difficult. to love that teacher who ignored me. to be nice to someone who does not think well of me. the list goes on.....
how i wish i could run away from all these....take a long vacation...be a tai-tai...take mc. .
how my imagination would go wild just thinking abt how i could get away from work.
why it is always that if u work hard, peope expect u to work harder? and harder...and harder..
does a human looks like a robot?
hur. pardon my sarcasm. but that's how the real world functions isn't it?
haiz....i'm fast becoming a complain QUEEN all over again...without my knowing sometimes!
encouragement.encouragement.encouragement.encouragement.
encouragement.encouragement.encouragement.encouragement.
Turn ur eyes upon Jesus
Look full in his wonderful face
and the things of the earth will grow strangely dim
in the light of your glory and grace.
(I HEARD THIS SONG IN THE UNDERPASS TODAY, AS I WAS RUSHING AND FEELING IRRITATED W WORK. I GUESS GOD IS TELLING ME TO REALIGN MY FOCUS...TO HIM! I FELT MORE ASSURED AND PEACEFUL AFTER HEARING THIS SONG. AND JUST WANNA ENCOURAGE THOSE WHO MAY HAVE FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE. TURN UR EYES TO JESUS.)
AFTER TODAY..
gentle reminders came to mind;
to overcome evil with good. to go 2 miles. to offer the other cheek. to freely give. to lend. to forgive. to take the plank in my own eyes to remove the speck in others' eyes. (i am imperfect too.)
and and....i'm so blessed i took it for granted. there are people who struggle with so much more! what's mine? (complain.complain.complain.complain.complain.complain.?)
maybe its time for me to turn my eyes to Jesus.
