rem my post during the exams that i'm very amazed by God? but i haven't got time then to elaborate... and now whilst i am free...i shall go on to explain. every sem's exams would be a very trying time for me. and it is not bcos of the amount of cramming or last min studying i have to do. all that are not as intimidating as the circumstances that surround them. So the days leading up to the exams would always be a high strung period of stress. It was very trying, trying to stay focused and well...not get overly stressed up. This sem's exam was no exception. I did studied ...and was able to concentrate on studying late every night. but they were all very last min work. For each module i only had time and the mental capacity to study 2 or 3 topics. at most. being so ill-prepared... as always, i did not harbour hopes of attaining As and Bs, just that i'll do well enough to graduate or even better to be considered for honours. Seriously though, i knew the chances were slim. i was really ill-prepared. and i remarked to my friends that i'll have to pray more than study! yes, i did prayed a lot. no, i did not pray for good grades...cos my mentality was i shouldn't ask for something i don't deserve. it was my fault for not studying in advance, how could i ask for good grades? perhaps some would disagree, but that was what i thought. and so, for each paper, i just prayed for God's peace to be with me, keep my mind alert and to help me to do my best. and the amazing thing was not limited to only the above 3 being answered. the most amazing thing was that for every paper, even though i was seriously ill-prepared, the questions that i saw on my exam papers were questions that i had either studied for, or was able to do!!! i was really amazed when i first looked at the questions. and the amazing thing was, it happened for all the papers! i was just so elated and grateful that i could do all the questions. The concern for the grades i will get became secondary. i was so grateful, contented. Nothing else seemed to matter. whether the answers i had given were right or wrong, how much i have managed to write or how much i did not manage to finish, didn't matter anymore. i was just so amazed by the exams questions themselves. how was it that they were questions i could answer? when all i've studied were self and randomly selectively few. how could it be? and why would it be that i was able to answer them? These questions still ring in my head today. The most satisfactory and in fact, logical answer to me is that God above made all these possible. having said all that, I dunno what kind of responses would be generated from people who read my blog. would you perceive it as mere coincidence? or would you say "she's one lucky girl"? one of my close friends once asked me how i know if things are mere coincidence or from God... to be frank, i am not sure how to answer that. but 1 thing i am sure, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." -Matt 19:26 when things are beyond a man's control...e.g death, illness, accidents, exam questions, health, lofty dreams...... who decides when you'll fall sick? who decides when you will die?who decides how much wealth you will have in a lifetime? who decides your years on earth? who can heal you when you fall sick? who can raise a dead man to life? who gives wealth and prosperity? who can add years to your life? does fate or destiny decides all that? who decides your fate and destiny? has there got to be a greater divine being, other than you and me?
The day is yours, and yours also the night;
you established the sun and moon.
It was you who set all the boundaries of the earth;
you made both winter and summer.
-Psa 74:16-17
