woke up at 9.30am...
went school to print evan drama gig script...it's finally out!
reached clementi at 1pm to meet Jess n Su Teck for lunch and ktv at kbox.
went church for drama practice.
reached home at 10.30pm.
watched DA CHANG JINg!!!
reflections done with a tired mind....haa..now i am here. tired.a day.almost 5 hours of ktv..wow. somehow i realise the enjoyment of singing the same old songs over and over again (the concept of ktv) fades with the frequency of visits.... u agree? and ktv now to me becomes like a fav pastime...just to pass time..good for catching up with friends, actually not really, unless the mike is off. the company matters too. who u sing with can make a difference to how u'll behave. singing with Su Teck n Jess ....i'll behave..like myself. ask them. haha....friendship...woes.how long is "forever friends"?is there such a thing nowadays?how do you define friends?how do you know who are not?is friendship sustained by common goals, beliefs and values or more?or do the differences in character and personality and pet peeves sustain one?do friends really accept one another?is true acceptance the role of a friend or true friend?can a crack in friendship ever be mended?do a friendship remain if left untouched for too long?how honest should one be with one's friends? Su Teck, Jess.liked the time spent with them today, where i'm allowed to be myself. totally. i dunno how many times have u felt suppressed of your true self. i have. many times. sometimes, so much and so long, that i've forgotten who i really am. scary rite? but i do feel that way. young adult identity crisis? haaaa......so i appreciate friends who let me be who i am, accepts me for who i am. the good and the bad. the happy and the depressed. Both. times like these where i don't have to prove myself, or to explain for my actions and behaviour. freeing up to be who i really am. uncensored. trust n respect. haa..i'm secretly hoping i am such a friend to them too. it's impt now i know, acceptance doesn't mean agreeing on everything, it means agreeing to disagree. do i make sense? but when the disagreeing becomes larger than the agreeing.....erm......i also dunno what to do le..one of my close friends (Xun Yu) left for M'sia this morn. without me. sob sob. i thot we were supposed to go together. nvm...she said it was a last min decision and she sensed that God wanted her to go. who am i to hold her back? and i believe God have something good in store for her there, thou we both dunno what. we are putting our faith in Him.drama.i guess the most evident place where DIFFERENCES, DIVERSITY n VARIETY are appreciated.would u watch a play where all actors act in the same way, say the same lines? and today during drama, i think differences are meant to be appreciated, and to be complemented. rather than something to be put down. God created each and everyone of us as different individuals. There has to be a greater purpose, than just a reason or excuse for conflicts/ disagreement. realise that coming together to piece the show together, get our act together is indeed tough and may i also add to that, humbling. have to consider group interest above self. consider the bigger picture. there's room for creativity, but it is limited and restricted also to group interest and the bigger picture. i have lots to learn, in terms of submitting to authority and respect that authority over me. an area i always have difficulties in. but it depends on who's the authority. ah....that's the problem, do u see.dunno if i am making sense in the statements above....haha...i'd reread and edit when i'm fresher.something i think i got to bear in mind with regards to the friendship woes that i think i have;Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord how many times shall i forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times? Jesus answered, " I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times."..............This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart. -Matt 18:21-22, 35
