the past week..
reflection of self
i began to se a darker side of me which i had not dared to reveal to others and myself.
i am selfish
does not like to feel uncomfortable
does not like to stress myself, and thus always avoid stress and stressful situations at all costs
does not like confrontation
is super sensitive to remarks made about me
gets insecure and hurt easily
is unable and unwilling to forgive some people in my life
has a bad temper, tends to show anger at family members
does not like criticisms
dislikes people who does not appreciate me the way i want
can be very pessimistic most of the times
very lazy, can sit in front of the TV all day and do nothing
does not like to do housework
likes to be nice
cannot stand being unpopular
lies to save face
rationalise to avoid confrontation
no self-discipline to study, to wake up on time to study, to do QT
will not do what i dislike, even if it is said to be good for me (stubborn? principled?)
selfish
perhaps my mum is right all along, about all these flaws of mine.
and God? certainly deserves a higher standard from me.
and me?
i always think i can't be that bad.
well, the truth of the matter is, i am.
putting God first is not a big problem for me.
becoming more Christ like, is.
and putting God first is also becoming more Christ like?
whose standards am i following?
whose standards are u following?Let's keep in check.
