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-day off from school. finally can sleep long long! ha....and i slept till 12 noon. what a good nearly FOUrteEN hours sleep! it's good..finally can sleep like a pig n have such a deep sleep to rejuvenate my tired body.
-oh what did i do? let me recall....i think i went lunch with my sis..then watched tv thruout!
-then i went dinner with mum n sis at 6....
-then i went for tuition- tuition...
-before i went, my thots wasn't settled..as in i was still preoccupied with thinkng of my own thoughts, problems and issues. I didn't feel like teaching, at all (if teaching was a feeling). ya. i was preoccupied with myself. yet i also know i can't go teach insuch a state of mind..so i prayed to God, to calm my nerves and to give me peace. I asked God to help me. I didn't feel any better (as if prayer is a feeling). ya. but i still walked towards the centre. When i got there, i was told to teach another student as the centre had a shortage of tutors that day. I went ahead and agreed although i wasn't confident of teaching that student. I had taught that student before but i always did not know how to handle him when he does not want to do his work. and yes, to teach him again reminded me of my past inability to handle him. but ya, i agreed to teach him, despite all these thoughts at the back of my head.
to cut the story short, at the end of the 2 hrs. I felt happy and competent. No, i did not manage to get the students to do a lot of work. No, it was not because i did nothing.
i was contented bcos i saw the student laugh. It was one of those rarest moments that u would want to capture down on the camera.
i was contented bcos he did the work i assigned without any complains. He did it diligently, quietly. This time.
I was contented bcos i have overcomed my fear n insecurity of teaching him.
by myself i couldn't have done it. I know myself.
but with God in me, nothing is too hard for Him.
=)
I was contented bcos i saw the student laugh. It was one of those rarest moment that u would want to capture down on the camera.
(God, thank you. I now know what u mean when u said in ur word that u have not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and of a sound mind.)
" For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, Abba Father." - Rom 8:15
