6 Jan 2006
I was asked by Ps Kieran to attend this event in church but honestly i did not know what it was all about! So i msg Matt and knew that the venue was at the carpark. But when i reached, the carpark had a sign that said "go to chapel". So i went to the chapel and found a seat among Matt and James...where are the girls? i also dunoo....
i was getting quite impatient so i asked James what this was all about. He told me that would be a service followed by dinner. Hmmm....but i still got the "dunno what's happening" kinda feeling.....partly cos i was not serving in any ministry now, and this event is kinda like for those who are serving. yup. so i felt awkward, esp so when a few asked me which ministry i was serving.
ok but as i woke up this morning, i had second thoughts about going for this event, afterall i would be tired after work. and again at work, i contemplated not going and as the hours ticked by, i became more restless. My auntie came late to replace me so i did not have the chance to go home and take a nap before i go church. So straight after work, i took bus to church...but physically, i was very tired as i did not have a good sleep last night.
anyway, shant rant about the nitty gritties.....
as worship began...right up to the last worship song. i'm glad i went. cos i was once again reminded of the Lord's goodness in my life. and while many would rejoice singing this song;
Jesus, You are so good
Jesus, You are so, so good
And i wanna thank you
With every beat of my heart.
inside, i could feel tears welling up. i was reminded of how the Lord has blessed me just a while ago. i was so filled with gratitude, while at the same time, so ashamed of myself that i actually did not want to come! and why is my spirits so low? has cycnicism creeped in? has jealousy and envy gotten to my head?
i was reminded by this song. indeed, the Lord is so good to me. Why should i let all these things bother me? why am i straying away from the Lord bcos of all these? Hasn't the Lord proven himself that he is good and he is the provider?
and i now know the things that i do not have pales in comparison to the things the Lord has given me.
nothing i can ever say is enough compared to what He has given me.
Teach me to be content with the things you have given me Lord.
Teach Me to be a good steward of man
Teach me to be a person who delights in You, alone
for you have given to the unworthy me, what more could i ask for?
and Jesus You are so good
Jesus, You are so, so good........
and Lord, i wanna be filled with You, more of You. Run for you. Trust in You.
