I went with my sis to NCC service last sun as Joyce flew me aeroplane (see this?)...haha. and Ps Lian preached on the UNMERITED, UNEARNED AND UNDESERVED favour of God! This was what the guest pastor preached on sat during our young adult service as well! okay, although i enjoyed both pastors' sermons, i did not think that i had God's favour, afterall God helps those who help themselves isnt it?

but i was soon to be proven wrong.

Okay here's what happened. I was offered a promoter job through Ryan's friend's Yunyi, through Jess who graciously gave the job up to me. I was to work from dec 1st to the 23rd, but alas! i got youth camp and the penang trip! So i asked if there is any way around that. The lady boss said i could find a friend for the days i cannot work. For this, i asked Joyce but she cant. So she offered to help me ask Peiqi. Thing is, Peiqi contacted me but did not give me an answer. However, i think she would most likely be able to help me so....After the service, i returned a call to the lady boss and she told me to meet up with her.Okay, so i thought that i had a job and need not worry. Then Peiqi msged me to tell me that she is unable to help me as she had another job which dates clashes with mine.

Then?

I was utterly disappointed yet at the same time, HELPLESS. What was i to do since i gave my promise?
Blame it on my pressumption. So what i am going to do?

Okay, to cut the long story short, i called up many of my social work friends, msged Jess to tell her that i might not go Penang with them. but i think i am super suay cos all the friends i asked cannot help me, for one reason or another. I was really desperate cos i really wanted to work. and the boss sounded nice, i kinda feel bad that i cant deliver what i promised. and it was like so last min. But in the end, i was left with no choice but to call and say that i cant work for her as i cant find any friends to cover for me.

In fact that decision was reached after much deliberation. I just cant bear to see this opportunity slip away! i was so bu gan yuan! how could it be that there is no friend who can help me?
But i have done all i could, and still i failed. by now i was sian half. I have to CALL the boss and tell her i CANNOT work.
before calling her, i prayed a little prayer and it was something like;
God, I don't know what will happen but Lord i know you know what you are doing. Lord whatever it is, i wanna trust you in this.

and after i made that call and told her i cant work, my disappointment made way for a tremendous sense of relief. perhaps, it just wasnt meant to be, at least i told her the real reason. at that moment, i did not feel any tinge of regret or held it against any of my friends. peace was with me.

shortly after, the boss called me again and told me to work for her first and meanwhile find people to cover me!!!! gosh, when i heard that, i was elated! after putting the phone down, i thought to myself: "this must be God's favour! nothing else! I did not do anything! i did not even plead to work, i only told her the reason and apologised. man....i really couldnt quite believe that i actually did nothing to get this job! Praise God! and all glory to God!

Truly and surely, this is the UNMERITED, UNEARNED AND UNDESERVED favour of God!!!!


Ps: i dunnno how u guys are going to view this, perhaps some may think that it is mere luck or coincidence. or maybe the boss really shorthanded. hmm... if u believe there is someone who can give u more than anything the world can give u, more than anything anyone can give u, it is God.

If u believe there is more to life than the life u are leading now
There is.
And it is in Christ Jesus.

posted by ser @ 11:15 PM