Just yesterday, i was quite bothered by what one of my friends did. Thing is, what she did was done with kind intentions, but i dunno what got into my koo-koo head and i ended up quite irritated with her! Of cos, all these thoughts were only warring up in virtual space! but i cant help thinking that i need no sympathy. I felt that i was kinda being "looked down upon", pity enough to be offered something. Sure, it was a harmless act but i cant help feeling that it was a act out of sympathy, which is the last thing i need! hmmm...and yup, as i pondered upon it, i realised hmmm who am i to get irritated or angry? Why should i be? Why do i even care about what others think? Do i assume my God is dead? hmmm...for if He is there, why should i fret? and ya, it isnt my right anyway. Am i glorifying God by thinking of such thoughts?

hmmmm....reassured, i fell asleep not long after.

I went for the young adult service today, and...., something about what Ps Steven struck me. As i was sitting there listening, a thought keep reoccurring.

It was like asking me, "Dont you trust me? You gotta trust God!!!!"

wow. it was as if God was speaking directly to me. Sure i trust you. Or so i thought. Maybe my trust wasn't trust. Come to think of it,

how many times have i lived as if i dont need God?
how many times have i forgotten to give thanks for his blessings?
how many times have i taken things into my own hands? thinking i can do a better job than God?

"God is the best connector. We don't have to pull strings, we have a rope!"

and how often have we forgotten to trust God with all we have?

whenever you start to get cranky with others
sick of your life, green with envy, full of undesirable thoughts
allow yourself to think of God.

Unmerited Favour.
the favour of God.
Surely, we dont deserve it
But He still chooses to give it.

posted by ser @ 11:09 PM