been exposed to several unpleasant things lately. First the bad assignment gradeS. Then the perpetual tensions at home. making me so sick. the endless and constant conflicts are getting on my nerves. Other than turning a deaf ear, i know no other defense mechanism. means i have to keep putting up with it! Sometimes, when life gets to this, it is such a drag isnt it? hmmm...but well, life. perhaps some of u are going thru a bad patch in ur lives now, perhaps like me, u have to put up with less than ideal situations at home. Or u are struggling, emotionally, psychologically. i hope what i am going to say will at least encourage you. You are not alone in this. There are many others trying to make sense of life too. =)
It wasn't a silver spoon life
Yet i had what i want
Live the way i please
Never knew the meaning of comfort
Till that fateful day
I was told to get some work
At that point, i could see my comfotable life slip away
For the first time in my life
And having lived 18 years
I lift my bum, used my hands and off to work
All for living sake
Never knew things could be worse
Till the day i sent papa off
God i just dont understand
Thinking that all will be okay, like before
Oh i was so wrong
Never knew things could be worse
Till i saw the ill-timed sms
Sending a beloved off was hard enough
And now, to nurture another one?
Heartbroken, devastated
I was on the brink of breaking down
By a twist of fate i was found
Received God's invitation and offer for comfort
At least, things seemed much stable now.
I began to let my heart mend
Afterall, they said, time will heal
Time will tell
I did a lot of soul searching
I didn't know what to do about the 'newfound' love
I inquired but i got no answer
But soon i found that it was not meant to be
God wanted me to give it all up.
God, then how? then what?
Would i really be able to stand alone? Stand firm?
I bet I havent heard, Jesus is our strong foundation.
Convulsed, not completely convinced
I moved on
I hated this life, i hafta admit
It wasn't easy adapting
But God was faithful
I saw His miracles and blessings
Surely, there got to be better things
Then came the ugly 'scene'
A loved one seemed like a stranger
A family life looks bleak
Who can i turn to? who can i stand by?
Who is my real family?
I turned to the unchanging God
Thank Him for his constant-ness
People may change
But i know God will not.
Now i stand
Learning to live each day
I know a wrong step may have me
Falling to the pit below
So tighly i held on to my Saviour
With the faith He's given me
I know He will never leave me
Today if you are jaded, weary, or disappointed of life
Remember you are not alone
Have faith, have hope
People will disappoint
Situations will always challenge
There are so much you want to do
There are so much you cannot
Perhaps, you will be comforted to know
Rome wasn't built in a day
Nor a great man free of trouble.
=)
