its always nice to talk to Xingfen aka Michelle... my dearest sister and friend. talking to her is always so therapeutic cos we both understand and know what each other mean and feel.

I talk she listens. She talks i listen. It seems simple. But it is not.

Because not what u say is always listened to.

That's why people always say they need a listening ear.

They never say they need another loudspeaker or advisor.

They say they need a LISTENER.

bcos i know listeners are hard to come by, i really appreciate people who really listen to my complains, whines, non-stop babbler, and basically whatever i have to say!

if u know me, most of the time, i talk very fast and i talk a lot. =)

and i really am grateful for Xingfen bcos i know that we started out as sec sch friends but later bcos of some misinterpretation of her actions by me and my petty and stubborn nature, i actually treated her shabbily. as in ignore her and get very angry with her and worse still, talked behind her back and talked bad abt her... that time i really disliked her...


Thinking back, it is all very awakening. Now we are very close friends and are like sisters who share each other's ups and downs.

Thinking back also, i was really very bad to her in the past. now i feel really remorseful abt my actions then. i actually mistaken her.

I owe her an apology.

should tell her face to face..

now i love her to bits! she's my ULTIMATE confidant. with her, i can be very real, very unreasonable, very cheeky, very crazy at times... but bcos of the renewed understanding that we had, she accepts me for who i am. and now, i know the true meaning of accepting someone for who he or she is.

definitely, it is not easy.

in fact i always struggle bcos i tend to judge people very fast and are very critical of some.
but i am always reminded by God, by the word, by friends, that i have no right to judge.

yup. they are right. no one has the right to judge another. Only God has. and He judges with RIGHTEOUS judgement. He shows no favouritism.

thou i still struggle with judging people too fast, i am trying not to. i'm really sorry for those hurt by my hasty and nasty judgements. pardon me if i have judged you.

and i think now i finally know what it means to truly accept someone for who they are.

u can infer true acceptance from this :

"I am afraid to tell you who i am
Because if i do,
You may not accept me
And it's all i've got....."

posted by ser @ 12:32 AM