at times when i'm spiritually dry, (that means i don't read the bible, i don't pray, i don't sense God's presence, or when i'm very suay the whole day), I see God in others.
You wonder how.
It's amazing.
Just a few weeks ago, i was praying for two of my filipino colleagues, praying for open doors for them to go church, praying for them to find God. As i prayed, i doubted cos as attachment students here on training, they SELDOM have weekends off and church services are only available on weekends. So i doubted the possiblity of that happening, but i prayed anyway. though i wondered how God was going to accomplish that.
Then 2 weeks later, i found out from one of my filipino colleagues that he and the other filipino colleague were off the coming sun. When he told me, i couldn't believe what he said! "incredible!" i shouted. How could it be possible? So i went to check the schedule and there, in ink and highlight, i saw their names and their days off marked 'SUNDAY'.
I was so so delighted! Hey, God answered my prayer! Most importantly, God showed that He loves His people!!! Praise God. That really made my day. I was literally jumping for joy, except that no one really knew that i prayed for it.
Another spiritual dry moment was when i visited my couz in hosp. I guess i didn't like the atmosphere of the hosp and i couldn't understand why nice people like my couz had to be sick, when i know well that it would be a trying time for her family. I don't understand why such unfortunate things have to happen to my couz. But as i visited her in the hosp the second day, as i found the courage to pray for her, as i struggled to call upon the name of the Lord to bless her at a time when i was spiritually unsure, i once again found Him. As soon i started to pray, a sense of peace began to come over me and the words just flowed. Steady and calm and soft.
When i saw the tears in her eyes after praying, i knew God never left me. God was there. God was speaking.
Yet, another spiritually dry moment came one Sunday as i brought my friend to church. Prior to that, her insecurities manifested by the many questions she asked me; about God, the bible, about relationships, about her dreams. As she began to bombard me with her questions, i discovered my insecurities as well! i've never read the bible chapters she mentioned, didn't know how to quote her suitable bible references, didn't know my God and how He works. To receive her msgs and not knowing how to reply really bothered me. I felt so unsure, so frustrated. so much so i didn't even bother replying.
Till after the service on sun, i decided to pray for her cos i felt that she was burdened with alot of things and i hope that God will provide her with the answers i'm unable to give. Strangely, we began a heart-to-heart talk and as she revealed, i began to see the purpose of that conversation. She was telling me things which were causing her so much pain and insecurity. I thank God that he used me to talk to her, to just listen to her. As i listened, i was overcomed by sadness. but clearly, the hand of God in her life is so evident. Listening to her makes me realise
how great a God i have, He hears and knows the cries of His people. He saves and protects. Praise God. In that brief conversation, i knew God like never before. I was once again awed by his great love, compassion and divine intervention.
I really thank God for all that he has shown and given me through other people.
cos i know
He's not only a God who loves me but above all, He's a God who loves his people.
