sometimes i hate the way this world works.
how i have to compete for a place to study
how i have to rush for assignments and projects, from one place to another
how i need money in order to survive
how i need to do exactly what the school dictates
"check the ivle regularly."
"sign up for your visits on the ivle."
"remember to bid for your tutorials on this day and this day."
how i have to get everything done by an assigned date
how i have to stay at the library to print the seemingly endless notes
how i have to study at a time where circumstances are so unfavourable
how i have to be nice to people who are not that nice
how i have to face the people who hurt me the most
how come relatives can be so heartless, i question the ties
how come everyone seems to be running after things, competing for things
how come i feel so left out in the race, so breathless, so lost
how come it seems that i'm missing out if i don't give chase, don't compete
how come it seems people around me are running faster and faster and i find myself slowing down, losing pace?
I ask myself
what am i running for?
what am i competing for?
Fame, wealth, status, qualifications, attention, popularity, acceptance?
i want none of that
I only want to run after my Lord
whom in Him i find all that i'll ever need.
If i run, i wanna run, run after You.
